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Fibromyalgia symptoms (almost) gone in 1 session

TOC

  • Intro

  • Symptoms cleared (3 days in)

  • Notes from the session

  • Verbatim transcript


Intro

Date of first session: AUG 19th, 2017
Client's Name: Julianne Barley
D.O.B. - May 1979
Age: 38
Medium of communication: Facebook chat

Diagnosis:

1995, age 18 - CFS
2009, age 30 - Fibromyalgia, Scoliosis and Disc compression
2016, age 37 - Anxiety and Depression
2017, age 38 - Pernicious Anemia

Major life events

  • 1987-1991, ages 8-12 - Abused by God Father
  • 1989-1993, ages 10-14 - Bullied in school
  • 1994 - age 15 - Raped, followed by being judged and "asking for it"
  • 1997-2006, ages 18-27 - Domestic abuse from partner
  • 1998 - Birth of Franklyn
  • 2000 - age 21 - Father died
  • 2003 - age 24 - Finding God Father dead while caring for him
  • 2003 Oct - Birth of Oli
  • 2010 - age 31 - Mother died
  • 2011 - age 32 - Birth of lily, learning she has CF
  • 2015 - age 36 - son (Oli) has breakdown from blood, develops blood phobia and intrusive thoughts
  • 2016 - age 37 - son () punching her face, angry from her enforcing a rule

I'm still in touch with Julianne, and she's getting better with every passing day.

she has more energy, sleeps better, feels better, and now planning for a fantastic life.

As you'll see below, within 3 days into the first intervention most of her symptoms were gone.

I'll post a followup in a month or so with her progress and more processes we've done.

If you or someone you know have any of the symptoms, do contact me and we'll start gearing you towards a brighter future ASAP.


Symptoms cleared (3 days in)

(X meaning the symptom is gone)

  • Bruising on leg/ankles.
  • X Water retention
  • X Aching legs
  • Sore joints and muscles.
  • X Painful hips and SI joint
  • Feet and legs roll outwards
  • X Difficulty passing urine without conscious relaxation.
  • Pain down back of buttocks and thighs
  • Pain between shoulder blades and over
  • X (not so severe) Severe thoracic back pain
  • Stiff joints especially morning
  • Pain in hands and long bones
  • X Night sweats
  • X Waking feeling sick with racing heart rate. Sweating and feeling unwell.
  • Severely painful back spasms in night
  • X (much better but still a problem) Fatigue
  • Weekness in arms and hands
  • Head aches
  • X Sinus pain
  • X (No hair loss when last washed it) Significant hair loss and thining
  • X Vertigo
  • Malaise
  • X Chills and fevers
  • Palpitations
  • X Hot and sweaty surges seeming to come from upper back
  • X Breathlessness
  • X Rib pain
  • X Chest pain
  • X (maybe a little foggy still) Comfusion
  • X (Memory improving) Memory loss
  • X Poor concentration
  • Shakes
  • X (Weight loss this week) Weight gain
  • Cold feet and hands
  • Clumsiness and accidents several times a day
  • X (feeling high!) Feeling low

Notes from the session

You are about to see my notes about the first 20 interventions we've done, over the course of 11 days, followed by a complete unedited word by word transcript of the conversation.

I want you to notice the general background feeling of the interaction, as you go through this. The "11" interventions are powerful on their own, but it's not as powerful as me doing this entire session as one long induction, in which I clearly set the frame of me having control and that as long as she continues to do what I say, her problems WILL be over, and there's just no two ways to go about it.

I will write a dedicated post for frame control later on, but for now just notice the ongoing "tone" I'm setting here.

This is something I'm harping on with many of my students and colleagues. The client needs to KNOW and feel ONE HUNDRED PERCENT that there's just no way I'm going to let her stay the same way. It's just not an option.

Let's begin ...

Right out the gate she preframes our work for me:
JB: My dad once said to me as a child the mind has great control over the body when I was poorly as a youngster. I'm willing to try anything.

and continues to give much information about her past:
JB: I was bullied, raped, excluded from friendship, labled a lier, my dad had a heart attack. Quite a bit around that time

Intervention #1 - Relieving memory of the rape at 15

I ask her to choose the first thing she wants to work on, in a very specific way, the highly presuppoes success. I come off so strong since she already said she will try anything AND the she has a deep belief from childhood about the power of the "mind":

AG: so let's start with something simple
... Think about one memory that still bothers you - presupposing it won't in the future
... and you will feel better now that you are about to learn to feel better about it - embedded command (feel better now), followed by another presupposition she will solve this (you are about to learn) and another embeded comman (feel better about it)

She chooses the rape and the accusations of "asking for it / lying":
JB: I'll start with the lier thing. That hurt more than the trauma in some ways. Craving support and help when people turned their backs and supported the person who attacked me. Remember sitting by a lake feeling desperate. Writing poems and trying to make sense of it all I feel so bad for that girl.

Notice she ends with dissociation (I feel so bad for that girl), and I enforce that:

AG: that's good you have this separation - Enforcing and pacing where she is now
... it means the hard part u've already done on your own, - Presupposing SHE has the power AND it's gonna be a smooth sailing from here
... without even realizing - this is a seed for later on, to warm her up to the idea she has more power than she is aware of.
... let's first only focus on the attack itself okay? - This is not a must, and I could have opt for processing the rape AND the social judging, which I usually do in face to face sessions.

I then have her use do the trauma relief tool on just the rape incident itself. At the time the tool was "in diapers", and didn't include some important framing, so I walked her thru that myself.

Success was evident:

JB: Blimy, that's very interesting! The colour I got was very significant
... Certain moments flashed back - Indicating the brain learned a better process than repressing those moments
... Saw his intent from the start which I have never seen before - These kinds of spontaneous conclusions often happen when shifting perceptual positions
... And then when I focused on how I felt after I felt good from in my chest. And It felt green like fresh morning grass. Bright as a green go sign. Positive and new. Which feels good. But very strange.

No matter how many times I've done this, I'm always amazed when someone learns to actually feel GOOD about something that just a few minutes ago was percieved as severe trauma.

AG: now as you think about that same memory again how do you feel? what's different? - presupposing something IS different

JB: Yes very strange. I feel good. Its like it wasn't what it was?

AG: do you want me to revert you back to your old feelings?

JB: No way lol I like this

By saying "no" to this seemingly obvious question, she unconsciously accepts 3 presuppositions that the problem is in the past:

  • revert
  • back
  • old feelings

And there's also another (MUCH more impactful) presupposition she accepts here, that all this is HER FEELINGS, meaning it's not about the event itself, it's her reaction to the event.

This is what many spiritual teachers try to pass on to their students, usually with limited results since they offer it cognitively, which I have not found to be as powerful.

Now compare it to what she's experiencing here ...

She's in a profound altered state. She's actually feeling good thinking about the memory of her being raped at age 15, which most people couldn't comprehend without proper training. She went from 23 years of trauma, straight into good feelings in less than 10 minutes, and here I am asking her if she wants to go back to the way it was.

Since her Amygdala is hyper active, and she's juiced up with all these emotions, any learning that takes place will be highly impactful and long lasting.

And of course she will say no to this seemingly obvious question, thus accepting all those presuppositions straight into the unconscious and long term memory.

Sneaky stuff eh? ;)

I use it a LOT which is DEVESTATINGLY powerful, and if you work with people in this way, PLEASE DO IT as well.

It also adds to the playfulness and easy-going-ness of the overall interaction, which is always good. Some people think changes should be "serious", long, and painful. That hasn't been my experience.

Intervention #2 - Building want and anticipation for the future

I leverage that state to build want and anticipation towards a brighter future after the "condition" will be "cured", using hypnotic patterns.

AG: ha! Isn't it interesting
I wonder if you already begin to wonder
how curious you become now
as you think of this moment
not too far from now
where you already learned how to turn more and more things
that used to bother you
to this new
pretty incredible feeling
comical even
how awesome is that?

Some of what's going on in this part:

  • I start with a question (isn't it interesting) and continue to a packed statement
  • Compounding open ended possibilities to overload her cognitive mind
  • wonder - sementically packed word, implying childhood, fairy tales and playfullness. Also sounds like "wander", which adds to the open endedness.
  • as you think of this moment - double meaning, could be now or as connected to the next sentence, "not too far rom now"
  • where you already learned - presupposing she is about to learn, it's only a matter of time, AND that it's something to be learned, and not some "condition" from the outside
  • used to bother you - presupposing it won't bother her in the future
  • to this new pretty incredible feeling - double meaning, "this" could refer to her current feeligns or the future ones
  • how awesome is that - presupposing the future WILL be positive, and it's just a matter of HOW positive she can make it

JB: It is very awesome. And I didn't think it would be possible.

This is gold. There are many ways to change and install operational positive beliefs, which I will dedicate a post about in the future.

By far, I've found the simplest way to do so is thru impactful direct experince, like turning what seemed to be traumatic, to a source of strength.

I proceed to stack more positivity towards the future:

AG: did you know you are going to feel so good about this - pointing out again how she can feel good without expecting it
just a few moments ago - Pointing out the polarity between how she "just was" before to how she feels now
I wonder what else you can begin to wonder, as you wander around these good feelings, about what it is that is possible for you now, that you know what you know

In that last sentence there are a few things going on. I'm inviting her unconsciously to generate possibilities about the future WHILE FEELING GOOD, and presupposing again SHE IS IN CONTROL ("now that you know what you know).

I've found one of the ways peole so successfully get themselves in a rot is thinking about the future while feeling bad and powerless, which is a good way to make sure you make bad decisions, which induce more bad feelings, and so it goes ...

She responds rather positively:

JB: And I've tried so many times to play it back, make sense of it. See whether I did make it happen if it was my fault. If I remember it right. To suddenly feel this way is incredible ... And yes. The possibilities now seem quite wonderous ... It's a wonderful feeling Adam. Like you say not only a feeling though. It's like a liberation and excitement cause the possibilities of this are pretty endless! You have found something here I believe. Thank you!

Later that day she reports interesting progress ...

JB: Dunno how or why but I have a spring in my step. My minds working fast. I feel excited. This is highly unusual for me. I'm often bed bound feeling like I'm dying. Today has been a good day. If your about I'll message tomorrow ๐Ÿ™‚ thank you again.

Intervention #3 - Relieving memory of finding dead godfather

I first make sure to separate potential grief from the traumatic experience itself, then prcoeed to relief the trauma.

JB: Next one that comes to mind is finding my god father dead at my home while I was caring for him.

AG: there are two different things in here ... do you miss him also? and have feelings of loss when you think of him?

JB: No. He abused me as a child.

Even tho she points to the abuse, that does not mean there's no caring, and since I'm not there to read her non-verbal cues and tonality, I make one more check with slight humor:

AG: so that's mainly the memory itself of seeing him dead? you don't go like "poor god father ... I wish he would still be with me"

JB: There's a lot of mixed up feelings. I cared. But I don't feel loss.

AG: okay so run the same process

...

JB: I had to do that twice. Didn't work first time. But I feel good now ๐Ÿ™‚

This is a great indicator of her taking control over her life. Most people would not do it again, and instead tell me something like "it didn't work", expecting me to solve the situation for them.

AG: excellent so now when you think of that memory, what happens? any of the old feeling left?

Always stacking presuppositions, it's HER FEELING that matters, not the sitation itself, AND these are old feelings.

JB: No. No old feeling. I feel good. All I can think of is me comically jumping throwing tea in the air

AG: LOL

JB: I was holding a tray of tea and toast lol

AG: wasted a good tea? AND a toast? have you no shame? what a terrible loss!
{Laughing out sticker here}
u mentioned he abused you? notice what happens as you think of that now
u might still need to do the proces - presupposing it's either resolved or on the way for being resolved or is it 100% automatic already? - again presupposing it's either totally autoamtic or on the way for being so

JB: Oh actually you're right. It's like that was nothing?

AG: lol I think you're broken :P - more silliness

JB: Lol Oops. Sorry not sorry lol - she goes along with it

AG: u sure you don't want me to revert you back to your old behaviors? lol - you know the impact of this by now ;)

At this point the rest of her past traumas "flipped" to good feelings, as her brain generalized the learning. This is one of faster cases I encountered of someone learning so fast to generalize changes in this magnitude.

AG: try to find any experiences - try presupposes failure
that used to bother you - presupposes it's in the past
before what you learned - it's all about knowing what to do, not the experiences themselves
notice what happens we want to be thorough here ๐Ÿ™‚

JB: Everything feels much better. How strange.

AG: lol you really have no idea how much more is on the way - building more desire and curiousity for a brighter future

JB: It's kinda freaky. But it's good

AG: it is, isn't it?

Notice how I keep the frame of "everything is great" even tho she uses words that could go either way like "how strange" and "it's kinda freaky". Like I said in the intro, the client needs to know that no matter what happens, she WILL get better.

Intervention #4 - Intensify good feelings

Sent her to do the good feelings generator.

JB: Got interrupted by the door twice pfft. So took me a while to get back in the zone but I persisted. That was really good! I chose excitement. - This is brilliant. Julliane's initiative and proactivity are quite remarkable. She won't let anything stand in her way, and that's exactly where you want clients to be.

It's a good motivator. And when you feel so low on energy and in pain it's so hard to get motivated. So I wanted more ๐Ÿ™‚ - Another great sign. her lack of motivation actually motivated her to want more. She connected the tool on her own to the solution to low energy and pain.

Intervention #5 - Relieving anxiety

AG: did you tell me about panic / anxiety? not sure if it was you
I was working with about a dozen of people at the time, from depression, OCD and fibro groups, so wasn't sure who told me about what.

JB: i suffered badly with depression about a year ago, with anxiety and feelings of panic.

AG: so right now can you feel anxiety? - presupposing it's something SHE CAN DO, she has the power.

JB: I can push it away feeling the way I do at the moment

This is an attempt on her part to get over the anxiety which most people do. Because she is not conscious of HOW she generates the anxiety, she tries to overcome it by pushing "it" away. Probably "it" means she is pushing away the picture in her mind that makes her anxious. This provides some momentarily relief, but it's not a long term solution, so I elicit her internal strategy for making the anxiety:

AG: is it a picture in your mind of something? teach me how to make this feeling so do I need to make a picture of myself? or I say stuff to myself?

Notice also this elicitation presupposes again that this is something she is DOING, as oppose to something that just happens to her.

She describes a vivid internal movie, so I have her run the trauma relief tool on it, which works the same way on constructed scenarios.

JB: it's like bright lights of good stuff coming out from where I expected something awful to come from

AG: bright lights of good stuff lol I created an ecstasy junkie! how will I live with myself ๐Ÿ˜žoh lord, pardon me for my sins ...

I add more playfullness and silliness, and continue to solidify the change:

AG: so no more anxiety? are you going to miss it?

By saying "no", she unconsciously accepts the presupposition the anxiety does not exist in her future. This is a covert way of future pacing by implication, which very rarely get resistance.

JB: No. Thinking about how it goes just gets scrambled by pleasure and I feel good. Mental

AG: lol you were suppose to teach me how to get panic - solidifying the idea she was always in control, actively making the panic
not turn it into more good feelings! - presupposing there are more good feelings other than this one
I'm gonna have to give you an "F" in brain control - more silliness

Intervention #6 - Turning all negativity to good feelings

AG: "so thinking of anxiety make you feel good now huh how about depression? don't tell me that's gone too??" - more laughter and silliness

JB: It's hard to think about anything negative right now? I feel good ๐Ÿ™‚

AG: that's exactly the time to try in vain to feel bad - double presupposition she will fail ("try", "in vain")
think of stuff that used to make you feel bad in the past - double presupposition it's in the past (used to, in the past)

JB: Lol it's not working. You broke the button for me.

AG: this is the perfect time to connect more good feelings to old limitations worst case scenario you will find more things to turn into bright lights of pleasure

Notice how I set it up as a positive double bind. I have her make a thorough scan of her past, with the KNOWING that no matter what she will "find" in this internal scan, it's positive.

Up until the day before she was being ruled by her past, and now she is jumping into it HOPING to find more bad feelings to turn into good ones. This is powerful as it is sneaky, and it's one of the learnings I install in most my clients and students.

JB: Same things happening to most stuff. They are many wavy lines of light moving towards me from the thing/situation I'm thinking about all different colours. - This is a fantastic reaction. She's already in light synsteshia.

AG: and many wavy lights moving towards you ... and different colours! - clean hypnotic language to intensify her experience
I wonder if u've thought what colorful lights can smell like or perhaps you already hear the sound they do, and the sound of the feeling? - eliciting synsteshia of sound and/or smell

JB: Hmm smell of burning incense silent and fast - that's impressive! she got smell, sound and speed

JB: ... It's all turned into pleasure. What did you do hahahaha I could sit here and do this all day ๐Ÿ˜› - seems like it's working :)

Intervention #7 - Recoding life with the new good feeling

I have her intensify the feeling while going to her earliest memory, and go through her entire life with this feeling, and stack any good feeling she finds along the way.

JB: All went by in quick moving smoky journey. Stopping at stages filling each up the same feeling.
I actually found myself gasping at some points
lol
mental
How can my Brain do this.

Intervention #8 - Future pacing / recoding rest of life with the new good feeling

I have her do the same thing this time for the future

JB: Well minds blown up now lol is it weird I'm no longer feeling satisfied to just have the things I previous wanted for my future? Like before I set my aims simply and achievable. Now my mind goes wild thinking past the limitations? Or am I just seeing what I wanted but better than I ever wanted? Is that good for me? It feels strange to think that way.

Intervention #9 - Intensifying pleasure and good emotions in the present

AG: in your wildest dreams you expected to - Samentically packed word "wildest" feel so good - embedded command in the question about so many things? - open ended invitation for her unconscious to notice all the things she feels good about

Most people never get close to their dreams, and I'm pointing her to the fact she just went way beyond her wildest ones, while still inducing trance AND building want and anticipation for the future.

JB: No. I didn't in my wildest dreams ever think I could feel so good about everything

AG: and yet here you are doing it - Again pointing her breakthrough and more! - Implying there's more but not stating it, inducing trance by having her go inside and search more "good stuff" by trying new things - In all my clients I install this opeartional belief that trying new things is GOOD

AG: where in your physical body do you feel the best now the most vibrant with life and health? which part of your body feels the most young and fresh?

Since she still had physical pain, from this point of the session I'm starting to plant seeds of health and leverage good feelings to propel her towards a healthy life, while at the same time pointing towards youth, which is BEFORE she was diagnosed, i.e. she is perfectly healthy.

JB: it's kinda right in my core. In my tummy I guess. - This is gold my friend! "core" is much deeper and powerful than any body part, a wonderful metaphor I'm now going to utilize many times.

AG: in your core ... and what do you feel most in your core and fresh? vibrant? alive? health?

JB: Buzzing - Now we have a metaphor of good feelings ABOUT the metaphor of location, depth and level of the body, and I'm going to utilize that as well from this point onwards.

AG: Buzzing ... how interesting isn't it ? and can buzzing spread when it's buzzing in core or it flows first to the rest of you

AG: "and can buzzing spread when it's buzzing in core or it flows first to the rest of u" - Inducing further trance and eliciting stronger buzzing

JB: Yes its like spread through me, and like it could spread from me. It's still there even though I'm now sat having a cuppa being less focussed

Remember the frame of my sessions, everything a client says is GOOD and CAN be utilized, so don't be alarmed by "less focused":

AG: and it's still there ... and how strong is someone ... who even when not focused... has buzzing health in core ... spreading through and from ... on autopilot

Lemme point again how much it's KEY to be in trance when doing this kind of work. This sentence flew right out of my fingers without conscious thinking, and I would NOT have come up with it otherwise. The more you surrender to the process, the more powerful your sessions.

JB: I'd never have guessed that could be me

This is an indication about her PAST limitation. It's easy to fall into the logic trap here and start to tear apart the "deep meaning" of what this might mean, but instead I let her unconscious and feeling lead her, it's MUCH quicker and powerful than logically talkign about it:

AG: and how does it feel now - Since I know she's bathed in good chemicals and emotions, I'm leading with feelings
to feel it is you - Embedded command + pointing her she's breached her past limitations (her past sentence)
and inside of your core - Utilizing her own metaphor for the level of change
and it could spread from you... - Again leading with feelings

JB: Is it normal for it to make you feel sort of aroused? That kinda of felt like an weird orgasm there for a while. - Major progress! It's physically and neurologically impossible to feel anything else than pleasure when having an orgasm, and remember this all stemed out of her past problems. I encourage that for future utilization.

AG: haha yes it's normal that's your brain pleasure receptors opening up

Intervention #10 - Reframing past "bad" behaviors

JB: Oh I see, I'm not strange then

AG: lol ... I am strange lol ... I find normal people boring as fuck (shit, did I say that out loud?? don't tell the others!) - This is such a common issue, it's always good to make it laughable as well, especially since society and most therapists make it a "serious" topic.

AG: in fact
u would be surprised
WHY many people come to me
it's exactly BECAUSE they KNOW at their CORE there's more to experience
something inside them DO NOT ACCEPT living like most people do
but until you now learn HOW to
it seems like you are "strange", "depressed", "sick", and all the other fancy terms society likes to label

JB: Yeah I get what your saying

And just like that, all her past bad emotions and pains are unconsciously understood for what they are, her body and mind signaling her something is wrong, and that something in HER is wrong.

It matters less how "true" that is, because it's a BELIEF, and useful beliefs are operationals, and think about the implications of what I just installed in her.

Any physical pain, and emotional pain, is an opportunity for her to improve her life, because the pain is WRONG, the pain is STRANGE, not her. I install this belief in most my clients (and myself) on a regular basis.

It also ripples out to another belief/generalization to be propelled forwards to "what will be better" instead of dwelling on what is/was wrong. It's a powerful unconscious future pacing.

Intervention #11 - Intensifying good feelings and health age regression

Taking all the good feeligns and age regressing her to a time in which she does not have any pain, and no symptoms of the "fibro" or "CFS".

This induction has many layers going on at the same time, I might do a dedicated post for it.

Intervention #12 - Future pacing getting healthier through time

AG: the more you go through to the future the healthier you get

JB: Back ๐Ÿ™‚ ahhh so good. I was running! I haven't run in about twenty years, never even liked it but the freedom of running in a light healthy body. Just wonderful. You are awesome you know! I feel healthier already.

This is mind blowing for many to comprehend ... she is actually FEELING herself running

JB: Just a powerful and light leisurely run, never done that in life or wanted to so no idea where that came from. My hair grew back. My body slimmed out and my muscles strengthened. I ended up on a beach at sunset. I didn't feel tired from the running. Also had the whole body orgasm thing again. So strange to feel like that with no physical stimulus.

Intervention #13 - connecting good emotions with "boring" mundane routine

She mentioned she had to do boring things (i.e. work and chores) so I thought "what the hell, let's make it fun for her" I elicited an "in the zone" state, added all the good feelings we've been building, and had her go through the "boring" stuff she had to do in her mind.

Intervention #14 - Building want and anticipation for her future and future sessions

AG: and with that, I bid you fare well for today
I'm very anxious to hear from you again and all the things you are yet to experince! - Remember she percieved herself as anxious before, so I'm sneaking it in here as a positive thing, anxious towards how good things can get
one last thing, you might have CRAZY FREAKIN dreams and might actually come inside in your sleep or as you wake up so if that happens, yes, it's totally natural


Three days later ...


Intervention #15 - Turning parents' loss into health resource + future pacing

Julliane is really something else, she actually started doing this with her mother in her dreams.

I had her use the grief to appreciation tool to further feel her mother's presence, future pace it, and same with her father.

Intervention #16 - Enjoying social situations

Since she was demonstrating such an ability to learn quickly, I wanted her to experience a deep trance phenomena, time distortion, to open up her brain and senses even more.

She went through the time distortion tool and chose social situations the first time, and intensyfing ecstasy the second time.

JB: it was going into social situations. I have this thing like going into a party or gathering of people where I'm self conscious and stressed and wired and feeling like I don't want to be there I want to just hide (and often go to the bathroom for space). It was all quite funny really, and the previous feelings got totally distorted. On thinking of it it normal time I no longer felt stressed like I wanted to go to hide in the bathroom. So that's really good!

She then had a spontaneous profound realization about WHY she felt so self conscious and dreaded social situations in the past.

JB: I've just worked out why ...
Why I feel self conscious and worried about how people see me and what they think of me ...

AG: was this like a realization you just had?

JB: Yes ... I told you I was raped. It was after a party. I reported it to the police. My friends were asked to provide statements. The statements were read back to me. I didn't realise how much I was observed and judged. Most were lovely. Others said I was flirty, huggy, too trusting... Anyways. Every since that moment, I've felt like everyone is watching me and judging me in a social situation. I guess it's why a party came up as a what I first thought about.
So I guess I have to do this again for the party lol

^^^ Notice she PROACTIVELY takes control of this charged moment. She is not asking me what to do, she goes right at it and does the trauma relief without even asking me. That's a VERY GOOD sign. The more you can get people to ACT, the more independent they will be, the more they will be geared towards SOLVING problems and IMPROVING their life, instead of staying in their old rot.

JB: I made everyone - Notice again PROACTIVE language
look really silly moving backwards ... - Silly is the key word, getting people to laugh about their "problems"*
Feels like it's over. It's not going to happen like that again. - That's a much better reaction than "it will never happen again", because it might happen again, but now she knows it will not be like that, not affect her the same way as before
Excited to see how I feel at the next social thing I have to do - More GOLD. She's excited towards what used to make her DREAD just a few moments ago ...
It means I can enjoy socialising more. Means I have made more progress to being happy and healthy again. - Most important part, she's headed towards more happiness and health, it's just a question of how quickly she will get there now

Intervention #17 - Enjoying social situations - future pacing

I have her connect all the great feelings AND health and hook it into future social situations

JB: Everything is getting so vivid now when I'm imagining stuff
It's like someone has switched my brain into. HD

Intervention #18 - Prepping for doctors appointment

I wanted to make sure she will take anything the doctor says in prespective of the doctor's limited knowledge and understanding. Most doctors mean well, but they often times hurt their clients unintentionaly since they are not trained in language and brain processes.
I told her about many past mistakes doctors and scientists made about what possible or not for humans to do. She connected with it right away.

This is when she sent me the list of symptoms, and the progress since she started learning with me 3 days ago (see above)

Intervention #19 - Compounding good feelings

I had her cycle thru good feelings from different experiences, compounding excitement, focus and energy, adding sparkels, and then while going to the future, feel herself running and jump into someone else's POV.

So she will go for a run in her mind, and see more people around running faster than her, and then jump to one of the faster runners' POV.

This is a sneaky way to expand her health feelings and push her limits, since it's easier to visualize someone else running faster than you, and by jumping to his POV, you get to feel the good feelings of running that fast.

She seemed to like it ... ;)

JB: It was amazing ๐Ÿ˜›
earth moved haha
I had a busy day ahead though so I didn't spend as long as I'd have liked being totally immersed in it
and had to peel myself up and get on. I think I'll make a date with myself tomorrow morning to revisit that ๐Ÿ™‚


Few days later ...


Intervention #20 - Installing pre sleep routine

AG: when you get into your bed cycle through past events the ones
in which you feel the most vibrant alive bathed in health
and do the thing you bath yourself in the good healthy feelings, and then jump to the next one
... as you do so think about the good sleep your about to have and see yourself waking up in the morning 10x times more vibrant and healthy 10x times the energy
... this will condition your brain and your body to cycle this FOR you on autopilot while you sleep and dream
... just remember not to jump to hard from the bed you are still not 120% yet!
... imagine all the good feelings you could be having during the night!
... we want to squeeze every moment of your being towards buzzing vibrant colorful feelings


Verbatim Transcript

AUG 19TH, 10:05AM
Julianne is waving at you! Tap to wave back
Hi Adam. My dad once said to me as a child the mind has great control over the body when I was poorly as a youngster. I'm willing to try anything. I was diagnosed with CFS back in 1995. Went away and come back a few times, but came back with a bang to stay around 7 years ago. I have fibro too and awful back problems. I'm quite disabled now and only 38!
Hey Julianne
I would love to teach u
if you are ready to put in the past what it is you do not need anymore
have you read already the post about the experiment?
Yes I'm ready to do that. And yes I have.
okay
did you make the list yet?
No I struggle so bad with a foggy head to take things in and there was so much in on post ๐Ÿ˜• I don't know where to start
okay
do you drive?
Yeah
okay
what would you do if you were on the road
and it was foggy?
Put the lights on, slow down and look harder I guess?
well you can guess
or
u can close your eyes and go through it now in your mind
and then tell me what do you do as you see the fog on the road
and you are in the car
Depends how bad the fog is. I'd wanna turn back or stop If it was awful and I couldn't see where I was going at all!
ok
that sounds like a smart thing
now
just as a warm up, let's try a little something
c yourself back in the car
Ok
and the fog is awful
and you can barely see
then fast forward until the fog begins to clear
slow down
look harder
so you could drive your vehicle to your destination
OK sorry had a phone call so got distracted.
part of life my dear
so tell me when you're done with the steps
Done
okay
now
what happened in 1995 and before that?
what big events have you had in your past that will affect you today in unwanted ways
like traumas or loss of a loved one
I was bullied, raped, excluded from friendship, labled a lier, my dad had a heart attack. Quite a bit around that time
gotcha
now since I can't read minds, and I'm not there with you, the only I can know what's going on is what you feed me
does this make sense?
Yeah it does.
wonderful
now
Here's how iit's going to work
This is not therapy, I'm not a therapist, nor do I ever wish to be. when I was still down in the past, insomniac, in pain and depressed, I did not find any of them to be useful, and I've talked to hundreds of "professionals" ... what we are about to do is all 100% open and natural for you to learn and experience, and here's how it's going to work, as I've been studying human behavior, organisms, how society shapes behavior, communication, and the greatest learning machine of all, the human brain, I'm going to give you some things to try, and whatever works for you you get to keep, whatever doesn't you file away in the "thing's I've tried and haven't worked for me yet."
sounds good?
Yup!
Great!
so let's start with something simple
Think about one memory that still bothers u
and you will feel better now that you are about to learn to feel better about it
something that happened
could be physical voilence, and argument, whatever it is
think of one specific thing that happened
got it?
OK well I'll start with the lier thing. That hurt more than the trauma in some ways. Craving support and help when people turned their backs and supported the person who attacked me.
Remember sitting by a lake feeling desperate. Writing poems and trying to make sense of it all
I feel so bad for that girl.
okay
that's good you have this separation
it means the hard part u've already done on your own, without even realizing
now
let's first only focus on the attack itself okay?
Ok
ok now
when I had an accident with my brother
a few seconds before the car hit us
we were just on the motorcycle and everything was okay
no signs of danger
then the accident happened
there was some high emotions there
and a few moments after we pulled over, exchanged details with the other driver, and everything was okay again danger is gone
even tho my leg was still hurting
the danger of the moment itself is gone
makes sense
?
Yeah it does
okay
so for u
how old were you in that past memory>?
I was 15. At a party. Like you say felt no danger, was having fun. The older boy said he would walk me home. I trusted him.
okay
15
so
I want you to go over the following steps, about that memory, and then describe to me the process u've done
Ok
I'm done
Blimy, that's very interesting! The colour you got was very significant
I got
okay
now
describe to me, step by step, in your own words, what did you do
I watched myself at the party. Certain moments flashed back. Watched her leave with the older boy, watched her walk. Saw his intent from the start which I have never seen before. Watched how it happened. Remembered the grass and how it felt on my back. It's what I focused on at the time I think because I gave up struggling and waited for it to be over. Then I was Sat in my bed room in the floor crying after I got home. That's when I reminded. We had this program here in the UK many years ago called the benny Hill show. The music and the shows so comical and quick moving. That's how I played it back. It was really strange watching such a traumatic experience to such a fun and humourous beat. And then when I focused on how I felt after I felt good from in my chest. And It felt green like fresh morning grass. Bright as a green go sign. Positive and new. Which feels good. But very strange.
It does feel strange, doesn't it?
so now
as you think about that same memory again
how do you feel?
what's different?
Yes very strange. I feel good. Its like it wasn't what it was?
do you want me to revert you back to your old feelings?
No way lol I like this.
ha!
isn't it interesting
I wonder
if you already begin to wonder
Yes it's actually pretty incredible.
how curious you become now
as you think of this moment
not too far from now
where you already learned how to turn more and more things
that used to bother u
to this new
pretty incredible feeling
comical even
how awesome is that?
It is very awesome. And I didn't think it would be possible.
did you know you are going to feel so good about this just a few moments ago before we started?
and you didn't think it would be possible ...
I wonder what else you can begin to wonder, as you wander around these good feelings, about what it is that is possible for you now, that you know what you know
And I've tried so many times to play it back, make sense of it. See whether I did make it happen if it was my fault. If I remember it right. To suddenly feel this way is incredible.
describe to me this incredible feeling
And yes. The possibilities now seem quite wonderous
I think i've earned to have some of that too!
the more you share the better you feel you know ๐Ÿ˜‰
Lol yes. I know. I learnt quickly around this time not to share. So it's quite a rewind!
now
It's a wonderful feeling Adam. Like you say not only a feeling though. It's like a liberation and excitement cause the possibilities of this are pretty endless! You have found something here I believe. Thank you!
well we are just getting started my dear!
tho if you want to make me happy even more, you can leave a review so others would know what is possible and learn from you as well!
Yup I will do that.
if you wish of course ๐Ÿ™‚
Of course I will.
I have a feeling I will have a lot to be thankful for now
when you're done, let me know because you are such a fast learner, there's a lot more I want to teach you!
So it's a pleasure.
haha that's fantastic!
I have a feeling this feeling would not be the only positive feeling you will start to experience more and more as you can see your future shining brighter by possibilities you have not yet explored
I'd like that. I will certainly let you know when I'm done!
It's been a long long time since I've opened my mind like this.
yes ...
the more you open, the more choices
the more choices, the more freedom, the better your life becomse
it's a vicious cycle you know
y gonna start to have more energy
pretty soon more compliments
people goona ask "what happened to you?!?"
Yes it's a horrible circle going round and round.
than your going to be a source of inspiration
u gonna be stuck in good feelings!
Lol that would be amazing
unless of course
u want me to revert you back to your old behaviors
I can still do that you know
I'm a powerful sorcerer
Na your alright haha. I don't wanna go back. You've opened a door and I'm not gonna go back in the place I was thank you
Thank you so much for opening that door.
thank you for blazing thru it
I wonder how many people will follow you in years and years to come
Left you a review ๐Ÿ™‚ I'm interested in your connection to cfs/fibro?
When I was still in Israel
A girl who survived a pretty graphic car wreck hosted me
no questions asked
I was living without money or possessions at the time
she was having it too, and it dominated her life
I helped her a great deal,but I did not know then what I know now
I see
Thanks for sharing!
say I think it will help others on the experiment
to hear about your experience
I will do was just finding the post in the group to share
You have something. I need to tell the others to give it a go for sure.
I'm real glad you opened up so much
there's a whole lot more to it
I can see that, and I'm so glad your sharing this. You are something special you know, so few people these days open their minds like this. I've not spoke with anyone as deeply as this. Everyone is so practical and mechanical living fast paced lives where nobody ponders beyond it seems anymore
well, tell it to my mom, she always said I'm special ๐Ÿ˜‰
Lol mums always think their kids are special. But yeah you are ๐Ÿ™‚ breath of fresh air in this fast paced practical world. Talking of practical world, I have work to do. Sigh lol thanks for the chat, I'll continue to work through some stuff later. I'll feed back how things have been going. No idea what the time is there but have a great day and thanks for taking time out for me!
sure!
and yea I'm waiting for your next message to continue
Will get this work done then get a bit of quiet time to go back to this
we are all young dear
laterz
AUG 19TH, 8:35PM
It's been quite a busy day! Forgot about a party I had to go to. Dunno how or why but I have a spring in my step. My minds working fast. I feel excited. This is highly unusual for me. I'm often bed bound feeling like I'm dying. Today has been a good day. If your about I'll message tomorrow ๐Ÿ™‚ thank you again.
AUG 20TH, 4:27AM
"Dunno how or why but I have a spring in my step"
"My minds working fast. I feel excited"
sure, message me we'll continue
AUG 20TH, 11:05AM
Haha Adam I will - I don't forget it when someone puts them self out to help me. Feeling a little delicate today after being given a little too much alcohol last night at the family party I went too ๐Ÿ˜†
delicate ...
I like that term ...
like an open flower
AUG 20TH, 1:00PM
I haven't drank in ages btw
I dont usually lol I don't like not being clear headed.
So maybe being an open flower is a good thing if I'm going to revisit this stuff today ๐Ÿ™‚
hey did you change your profile pic?
lol same on me for multi tasking between so many people
I'm trying to be more feminine so I could do more things at once ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
Yeah It was of my hand on my mother's as she died, the 18th was the anniversary of her passing. That pic is of me and my daughter Jessica she snapped it last night so quickly popped it up so I could change it from the one remembering mum ๐Ÿ™‚
There aren't enough hours in the day. I am constantly trying to fit more and more in and with this illness it's not easy!
I can wait to chat. Talk to the others for now ๐Ÿ™‚ I'm gonna clean up for a while, that always helps my head and I actually have some energy
haha sounds good I'm not talking to anyone at the moment
and about time, remind me to teach you time distortion later it's quite trippy
Ah OK, I thought maybe you had a couple of conversations on the go and my profile pic change confused you. I'll tidy up then and chat in a bit. What time is it over there?
17:10
AUG 20TH, 8:38PM
i sent you a very small gift. Its not much, but with my health being as it has ive had to stop working. i have my own buisness, i sew clothes. I was doing quite well and if i had been well id be doing incredibly well. But ive managed some work this weekend and earnt a little already. So wanted to share a little with you. I assume you ll be sleeping now so catch you soon ๐Ÿ˜€ thanks for what you ve already done
AUG 21ST, 4:13AM
Thank you!
Let me know when your ready to learn new tricks
AUG 21ST, 10:20AM
Morning ๐Ÿ™‚ well I guess afternoon there. Ready when you are. Hope you had a good weekend!
Indeed!
can you do me a quick summary in points, about what we've done and what u've learned?
Yeah just making a cuppa (overslept) and I'll be with you. Sorry I changed my profile pic again. Hope it didn't confuse you I'm hands picture woman.
lol I like changes ๐Ÿ˜‰
I'm not a point girl, I'm an essay girl hahaha always too much to say. And I make hundreds of typos. You'll get used to me ๐Ÿ™‚ ok so
sounds good to me
as a start
;)
now
are there any other events in your past
that used to bother you like the one you've run in reverse ?
Oh there's lots
well
what are you waiting for? lol
do the reverse thingie!
Waiting for five mins to myself. It was a busy weekend lol
okay so you know already what's the next one you gonna turn to humor?
No idea. There's many.
well pick one
OK. Next one that comes to mind is finding my god father dead at my home while I was caring for him.
okay
but keep in mind
there are two different things in here
do you miss him also?
No.
and have feelings of loss when you think of him?
He abused me as a child.
oh okay
so that's mainly the memory itself of seeing him dead?
u don't go like "poor god father ... I wish he would still be with me"
There's a lot of mixed up feelings. I cared. But I don't feel loss.
okay
so run the same process
bookmark the page so it would be easier
Ok
I had to do that twice. Didn't work first time. But I feel good now ๐Ÿ™‚
excellent
so now when you think of that memory, what happens?
any of the old feeling left
?
No. No old feeling. I feel good. All I can think of is me comically jumping throwing tea in the air
LOL
I was holding a tray of tea and toast lol
wasted a good tea?
AND a toast?
have you no shame?
what a terrible loss!
Lol
u mentioned he abused you?
notice what happens as you think of that now
u might still need to do the proces or is it 100% automatic already?
Oh actually you're right. It's like that was nothing?
lol
I think you're broken
:P
Lol
Oops. Sorry not sorry lol
u sure you don't want me to revert you back to your old behaviors?
lol
Na your alright ๐Ÿ™‚
I really should be a comedian
okay now
Indedd
try to find any experiences
that used to bother u
before what you learned
notice what happens
we want to be thorough here ๐Ÿ™‚
Everything feels much better.
Great!
How strange.
lol
u really have no idea how much more is on the way
It's kinda freaky.
But it's good
it is, isn't it?
It is!
okay
now
remind me what problems you used to have?
In what sense?
u said your back was hurting
was there anything else?
Physically? I have cfs and fibro. Although I personally think they are the same. I have chronic back pain. Hip pain. Some days I can't even lift a cup of tea. I've had this for over 20 years. Back pain and fibro pain for about 6.
Got better for a while and trained to be a nurse
Then had massive replapse about 6 years ago
Went back to my first love, sewing. I work from home making clothing. But sometimes I can't even sit up
how do you feel now
physically
at this moment
I'm lying down but I feel ok. The weekend has been good physically since I spoke to you. I have had more energy and feeling less pain.
okay
so
what would you like to do next with me
there are two "Main" different things we can do
one is intensify, install, and integrate good feelings
one is clear bad feelings i.e. regret, guilt etc
I dont mind. Either would be good. Whatever you fancy. What would be helpful to you too baring in mind you want to see how this works for people like me with fibro?
whatever pops to your mind first is best
Let's go with good feelings.
okay
I've literally finished it an hour ago, so you get to experience it first ๐Ÿ™‚
K will go do it ๐Ÿ™‚
c you on the other side
Hey ๐Ÿ™‚ I'm back. Got interrupted by the door twice pfft. So took me a while to get back in the zone but I persisted. That was really good! I chose excitement.
It's a good motivator. And when you feel so low on energy and in pain it's so hard to get motivated. So I wanted more ๐Ÿ™‚
Great
okay now
did you tell me about panic /anxiety?
not sure if it was u
I'm not sure if I told you or not, but i suffered badly with depression about a year ago, with anxiety and feelings of panic.
So even if its not me you are thinking of, I do have it yes. I've learnt to overcome it somewhat but it's still there.
okay
so right now can you feel anxiety?
Yes
how strong is it
0-10
It's not as bad as it once was and I can push it away feeling the way I do at the moment. So only about 5?
well
without doing anything consciously
how much of anxiety are you feeling right now
If I let it creep in and stay there I dunno about 8?
how do you let it creep in?
By thinking about it
is it a picture in your mind of something?
teach me how to make this feeling
so do I need to make a picture of myself?
or I say stuff to myself?
Like I'm being led by someone towards an big open disused warehouse. Dark inside, nothing there. And that person leaves saying it will be here soon. And your just waiting for it to come out of the darkness and scare you. Not knowing what or who it will be or how it will make you feel but you feel it will be something horrible. Scarey. Dangerous. Something or someone bringing negative consequences.
okay
gotcha
run the same process you've learned on that
Ok
Yes I know. I dint fancy intensifying that feeling lol
u'd be surprised that works as well
we'll save that for some other time tho ๐Ÿ˜‰
it's trippy but it's a massive explosion for growth
I'll try it sometime, I'm pretty open to try anything really. OK back to this. Brb
:)
Ok that was weird. I couldn't get to the scarey part, it kept changing. Instead of something coming out that I didn't want to, it was good stuff. I feel kinda silly even saying it but it's like bright lights of good stuff coming out from where I expected something awful to come from. What's going on lol I sound like a right head case.
lol
remember I told it might happen
that's your brain learning
and your uncouscious is making some changes for u
Did you? I like it ๐Ÿ™‚ but it's freaky lol
so you can focus on how awesomer life can be with each waking moment
so ...
bright lights of good stuff
lol
I created an ecstasy junkie!
how will I live with myself ๐Ÿ˜ž
oh lord, pardon me for my sins ...
lol I could do this all day
Lmao yeah. You have! Hahaha
I'm a left head case
:p
so no more anxiety?
are you going to miss it?
No. Thinking about how it goes just gets scrambled by pleasure and I feel good. Mental
lol you were suppose to teach me how to get panic, not turn it into more good feelings! I'm gonna have to give you an "F" in brain control
Sowweee
well
so thinking of anxiety make you feel good now huh
how about depression?
don't tell me that's gone too??
It's hard to think about anything negative right now? I feel good ๐Ÿ™‚
well
that's exactly the time to try in vain to feel bad
think of stuff that used to make you feel bad in the past
Lol it's not working. You broke the button for me.
well
really try to go through anything you can think of
this is the perfect time to connect more good feelings to old limitations
worst case scenario you will find more things to turn into bright lights of pleasure
(later tell me if that feeling has a shape or a size btw)
Same things happening to most stuff. They are many wavy lines of light moving towards me from the thing/situation I'm thinking about all different colours.
and many wavy lights
moving towards you
Yup
and different colours!
Yes
I wonder if u've thought what colorful lights can smell like
or perhaps you already hear the sound they do, and the sound of the feeling?
Hmm smell of burning incense silent and fast
okay
now
u said "Same things happening to most stuff. They are many wavy lines of light moving towards me from the thing/situation I'm thinking about all different colours."
most
?
what about the rest?
I'm still going through them. Just a bit of feedback so far.
gotcha
and as you do so
keep seeing the incense
silent and fast
and smelling the lights of different colors
sprinkle delicious incense everywhere you go and explore inside
It's all turned into pleasure. What did you do hahahaha I could sit here and do this all day ๐Ÿ˜›
lol
by all means
do so!
now
here's something very awesome for you to do
ready?
K
keep making the good feelings
feel the lights, and smell the incense
and go back, waaaaaaaaaay back, to your earliest memory
and as you go back notice that feeling getting stronger
a natural process you do like breathing
and tell me where your
in your most ancient memory
and how old are you in this memory
I'm about 3/4 I climbed onto the table and I ate all the sugar in the sugar bowl. My mama came in and at first say noooooooooooooo! Dad came in and we all were all laughing together
okay
how would you add this good feeling
and laughter
as you all laugh together
to the wavy bright good colors
and incense smell
silent and fast
so you could experience it all together and more, at the same time
Yes that's what's happening. It's not just funny and happy it's blissfully funny and happy, feeling togetherness and love
how wonderful!
now
I want to take this feeling
and DOUBLE IT
and double it again
and start to grow up
and the more you grow up
and the feel good feeling grows with u
and go through more and more of your life
as you grow up up up
starting from where you are now
laughing in bliss with family
and grow up through life until you reach the present moment
and every time you feel a good feeling, feel it integrating to the funny happy blisfully
togetherness and love
do you understand?
Yes
let me know when you are 38 years old again! ๐Ÿ™‚
I'm back. Wowzers that was trippy
yes it was!
describe to me what was your trip ๐Ÿ™‚
how*
All went by in quick moving smoky journey. Stopping at stages filling each up the same feeling. I actually found myself gasping at some points lol mental.
that's perfectly normal
that's your body adapting to new heights of pleasurable sensations
:)
now
It's mental.
there's one more piece to this
How can my Brian do this.
Brain lol
Brain
Not brian
it's not you my dear
It's the powerful sorcerer reptalian
Lol
Proper laughed out loud at the sticker
one of my favs
now
all that good feeling u've integrated?
Keep focusing on that
and now start going forward through time
making it even stronger
Ok
and notice
how many possibilities you now have
and new choices to behave and feel in situations that used to trouble you before
and also notice
how much pleasurable experiences become THAT much more intense
and keep the good feelings spinning
and the colors, wavy bright lights, incense,
and laughter ๐Ÿ˜‰
and let me know when your 500 years old ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
Well minds blown up now lol is it weird I'm no longer feeling satisfied to just have the things I previous wanted for my future? Like before I set my aims simply and achievable. Now my mind goes wild thinking past the limitations? Or am I just seeing what I wanted but better than I ever wanted? Is that good for me? It feels strange to think that way.
it's VERY good
that's called "using your brain"
which is the opposite of what 99% of people do which is "let their brain use you"
u should not settle for anything less than a fantastic life
u might want to list all the good things and ideas that come to your mind btw
and tell me
if in your wildest dreams
u expected to feel so good about so many things?
No. I didn't in my wildest dreams ever think I could feel so good about everything
interesting ...
and yet here you are doing it, and more!
by trying new things
btw
where in your physical body
do you feel the best now
the most vibrant
with life
and health?
which part of your body feels the most young and fresh?
It's hard to say, but it's kinda right in my core. In my tummy I guess.
in your core ...
and what do you feel most in your core
and fresh?
vibrant?
alive?
health?
Buzzing probubly sums it up
Buzzing ...
how interesting isn't it ?
and can buzzing spread
when it's buzzing in core
or it flows first to the rest of u
Yes its like spread through me, and like it could spread from me. It's still there even though I'm now sat having a cuppa being less focussed
and it's still there ...
and how strong is someone
who even when not focused
has buzzing health in core
spreading through and from
on autopilot
Well I can tell you this, I'd never have guessed that could be me lol
and how does it feel now
to feel it is u
and inside of u
your core
and it could spread from you...
I'm amazed.
and could more people enjoy Buzzing?
as it at your core
more and more
spreading
flowing
and who would enjoy buzzing?
Like every one lol
and every one
BUT
u have someone
which you want to empower with buzzing in core
don't you?
as in
someone who you would feel good
having the buzzing in core
and affecting them as well with
lol or maybe nott ๐Ÿ˜€
I'm a guy remember no female intuition for me ๐Ÿ˜ž
Yes totally, I wish everyone could feel that way. Its just the people closest to me aren't open minded. They are practical thinkers, non emotional. So nobody springs to mind right now I think some of it is that it's do intense. Can I ask you something? Is it normal for it to make you feel sort of aroused? Like that kinda of felt like an weird orgasm there for a while.
haha yes it's normal
that's your brain pleasure receptors opening up
Phew lol
I work with women on sexual peaks
and many times they go through what you do
altho I gotta say your quite remarkable
now
let me clarify what I mean
about the Buzzing in the core
but first
which kind of buzzing is it
describe it to me
when it's buzzing at your core
Oh I see, I'm not strange then
lol
I am strange lol
I find normal people boring as fuck
(shit, did I say that out loud?? don't tell the others!)
๐Ÿ™‚ Yeah normal is boring bahaha
in fact
u would be surprised
WHY many people come to me
it's exactly BECAUSE they KNOW at their CORE there's more to experience
something inside them DO NOT ACCEPT living like most people do
but until you now learn HOW to
it seems like you are "strange", "depressed", "sick", and all the other fancy terms society likes to label
Yeah I get what your saying.
I know you do ๐Ÿ™‚
now about that buzzing
is it like a bee buzzing?
or ... describe it to me
which kind of buzzing it is
at the core
It's more like an electrical vibration
an electrical vibration ...
more ...
Warm and full of energy and potential.
and warm ...
and full of energy ...
and potential ...
what else
when electrical vibration vibrates in core
and spreads
Yes. Surging up my back almost sort of winding me. Then on the flip side it also traveled down and I felt it in you know, that organism place lol Very strange feeling like that without anything actually touching me.
ahhh ...
and surging up back ...
and winding ...
and organism place ...
without touching ...
Yeah I think my body actually jolted a few times. Crazy
isn't it amazing to what extent you can learn to master your emotions, body, and mind?
and in such a quick time?
Mental. Didn't realise that it was possible at all
wll
well*
now
keep making that feeling
and in a minute I"m gonna tell you to close your eyes
and when I do
I want you to close your eyes
and spin the good feelings
and feel them get 10x times as intense
as you surrender to them completely so that
it integrates
right from the core
and colors every part of your body
every cell
every string of DNA
which you do not know how exactly it will happen yet,
u will feel more and more inside of u
getting deeper and deeper
as buzzing consumes you whole
and at a certain point
Open your eyes
only at the rate and speed
that you feel your body
vibrant as before
waaaaaay before
when your just a baby
and when you open your eyes, you would be surprised to find out,
all the changes that have taken place now
in deep deep places
u have not visited for too long
and now it's time to explore even further
does this make sense?
(kinda lol)
Yes
u understand?
PERFECT
Uh huh
close your eyes now
K
I'm with you every step of the way
:)
I feel bloody amazing. That was like a whole body orgasm lol my mind can do this? Or is it the reptile sorcerer again lol
Can do this and more
Now I want you to do the same thing
And as you do so
Bare in mind 2 things
K
2.
get curious, as you sink into that feeling
what can you do to intensify it even more
think about colors, smells, sounds,
taste
feelings
and is it gets stronger and stronger
picture yourself at the duture
future*
so the more you go through to the future
the healthier you get
now
before you jump into the whole body orgasm again
notice as you do it
how do you look and feel, and how does your voice sounds, when your 100% healthy, from head to toe
and your so vibrant and electrically charged at your core
that there's simply no room for anything else
so old things that are no longer needed will get pushed outside
to let more of the useful in
makes sense?
Yes
god
good*
lol
scroll up a bot first
and read the text again, all the way to here
let me know when you're done reading, and when I'll tell you to close your eyes again, sink in 10x time as deep
Ok
lol ok you read or ok you got it
:D
I'm reading and I get you
Sorry door again. Pfft I hate distractions. OK I'm ready to close my eyes again.
Fantastic, now close your eyes and come inside 10x times as deep, as u let an overwhleming buzzing consume and jolt your entire body as you surrender to what it is the fills you from the inside, deep deep down, and even deeper than that, deeper than the core and the core of the core,
as your fiber of your very existnece can begin to alter in marvelous ways together with the rest of you
as you look into the future and come harder to a profound realization that alters your core even further, as many things you do not need anymore can leave your body, creating a vacuum so compressed, the sucks all that is good inside, and the more you come inside the better you feel, the more you can see yourself in the future getting healthier and healthier beyond imagination,
OK ๐Ÿ™‚
and your core's core knows it's the right thing to do
as all that's left is to close your eyes, now
K
Back ๐Ÿ™‚ ahhh so good. I was running! I haven't run in about twenty years, never even liked it but the freedom of running in a light healthy body. Just wonderful. You are awesome you know! I feel healthier already.
running?
how interesting!
how far did your un
and how fast?
Just a powerful and light leisurely run, never done that in life or wanted to so no idea where that came from. My hair grew back. My body slimmed out and my muscles strengthened. I ended up on a beach at sunset. I didn't feel tired from the running. Also had the whole body orgasm thing again. So strange to feel like that with no physical stimulus.
it was strange, wasn't it?
nowthere's the wrongful old saying
"practice makes perfect"
that's not true
"practice makes permanenet"
and your brain will practice this with or without you
consciously, and unconsciously
Well I've found that today. It's doing things all by itself.
next time you are physical with someone
just warn him you might scream more than what he can imagine
;)
so he won't take the credit LOL
(u know how men can be ...)
say
how much into the future did you go?
Lol I think I might just explode into a thousand pieces next time. Might have to erm see to that myself later cause I'm feeling achy now cause nothing got done about it lol
I dunno! It's like I kind stopped aging
and you kept moving forward through time?
Yes
well
let's see now
what made you"come back"?
the whole body orgasm?
Yeah, then I was just standing in that beach. Felt like the right time to open my eyes again
Plus I've now spent half the day exploring my mind and nothing has got done lol
lol what you mean nothing got done?
Haha I mean boring work.
oh haha
I got miles done for me
I'll show you on another time how to make those times fun as well
but for now
here's a small kick for startes
close your eyes, vibrate the core of your core, and see, feel, and hear yourself zooming through your tasks
u know how some days your just in the zone, and get stuff done super fast?
Yes
for me there's something about ticking off boxes that induces a sensation (don't laugh,..)
so think about one of those times
super fast
and add that feeling to the mega feeling u've built
do it quick, few minutes tops
Ok
and then in your mind go through everything you need to do, and feel yourself getting lighter as you get more and more done
and with that, I bid you fare well for today
I'm very anxious to hear from you again and all the things you are yet to experince!
one last thing, u might have CRAZY FREAKIN dreams
and might actually come inside in your sleep or as you wake up
so if that happens, yes, it's totally natural
OK ๐Ÿ™‚ thank you so much.
and also start getting curious about how many your about to inspire as they will see through you what is possible
laterz!
Laterz ๐Ÿ™‚
AUG 21ST, 4:57PM
Just quickly as I'm going about my chores - have many people from the me/cfs/fibro group are responding?
there are 8 thousand people in the group, and not enough of them have responded
maybe you could do something about it ๐Ÿ˜‰
I will. I told you I wouldn't just take and not give you anything back ๐Ÿ™‚
cheesy quote time? "when a candle light her sister, the flame burns brighter for us all" - Some weird dude with a crockodile pet sorcerer
Haha
Indeed
I have some plans. Wait and see. I Just need a bit of time to sit down and do a bit of typing. Right now I need to do food shopping. Blaa
Now you got me curious
I love diabolical plans
Btw ill show you later how to turn that into fun as well (if it wont happen already)
Food shopping into fun? I'll let you know how it goes but I'm pretty sure it's gonna be mundane lol
we'll see ๐Ÿ™‚
AUG 22ND, 9:22AM
Food shopping was crap lol but I did pick up some insense sticks to burn ๐Ÿ™‚ thought it would keep me close to the things I'm learning whilst I go about tasks. Oh and I had vivid dreams about my mother and the past last that. No sleeping organisms though pfft. Damn it haha ๐Ÿ™‚
Organisms lol
My typos make me laugh. I type too fast too keep up with my brain
yea that happens!
what did you notice is different when you woke up today?
Energy. I have more and excitement ๐Ÿ™‚ I feel lighter.
do you love it?
Course... I've spend so so long suffering to the point of not being able to do a thing. Feeling more normal is a revelation.
Cืืืš!
errr ....
damn Hebrew!
Haha no idea what that says
meant to say ...
Cool!
Ahhhhh
so let me know when you want to learn new super powers ๐Ÿ˜‰
Btw your PayPal might have been thrown another small gift last night ๐Ÿ˜‰
haha i've seen that thank you!
I know it isn't much. It's all I can do right now. But of course when I become more and more productive and well the more I can earn ๐Ÿ™‚ and I won't forget what you did for me. Anyways, whenever good for you for another chat is fine. I am working today from home as normal. As in most days. Seeing the doctor tomorrow afternoon. Then I'm away camping over the weekend Friday to Sunday ๐Ÿ™‚
cool
so you mentioned dreams about your mom
anything that "pops out" from those?
without getting too much into details ๐Ÿ™‚
Not a lot, i was in my late teens and at college so the college part took up a lot of the dream, my mum just Stood out in it cause I miss her I guess and it was nice to see her in my dreams.
oh cool
are your parents alive?
No. Dad died 17 years ago. Mum 7
okay
what u've done in your dream is AMAZING
it's the beginning of the next process we'll do
Is it?
it really blows me away u've done it in your dreams
What did I do? Lol
"my mum just stood out in it"
I'm going to give you a way to intensify her presence 10x
and turn it into another incredible resource
Ahhh I see
that will always be available for u
That would be amazing
I'm right here with u
every step of the way
c you on the other side ๐Ÿ˜‰
Thank you ๐Ÿ™‚
That was a lovely experience. It was tough to find someone where sense of loss wasnt the dominating feature of my memory though
which part did you find the most lovely?
describe to me what u've done
any feedback is immensly useful
Being able to join my mother into memories with my friend. I remember lots of good experiences with my friend like laughter and togetherness and acceptance, support and encouragement. Where as I struggle to think of those times with my mother as they are clouded by the sense of loss that I feel. And also by the fact that when I was grown up enough to have more of a friendship with my mother - my mother was diagnosed with dementia and I lost that stage of our relationship. Back to the exercise though, the good feelings were like smoke that I breathed in. And they traveled around my body in my blood stream just like oxygen would. It wasn't powerful but it was significant and relaxing and tranquil. Whooshing round my body. And in my head I could picture my mother next to my friend in all the lovely memories I have with my friend. It was nice. And yes, when I think of mum now, I always have these good feelings with it ๐Ÿ™‚
ahhhhh
smoke the breathes in
traveling around body
in blood stream
just like oxygen!
Yup
feel healthier with smoke, don't you?
now
remember how you see yourself in the future getting healthier and healthier as you progress forward?
Uh huh
ok now
breath in the smoke
look at your mon
take all that with u
and ADD it
to the vision of yourself in the future
getting healthier and healthier as you progress forward
makes sense?
Yes
(btw I wonder if u've seen the series "lost")
I have
ok lol will tell you later y
off you go now!
more good feelings await!
K
I'm running again through my future. Seems this light feeling, being so healthy and fit that I can run is important to me. I'm in like running clothing and fit and healthy. And I'm breathing in this good feeling about my mother and my friend all at once. And it's feeding my body as I run. Keeping me going, comforting, inspiring, making me laugh and smile. Going round and round my body
beautiful
now
about your ad
dad*
u can run the same process
the more your un the better you feel ๐Ÿ˜‰
as more and more good feelings and thoughts run through your body and mind
makes sense?
Yup
okay
remember I'm always with u
right here
c you on other side ๐Ÿ˜‰
OK
Again so hard to think of someone so I used the same friend as before. Again feeling content and happy. It was 'lovely'
did you see mother as well?
No I tried to keep it a separate exercise but with the same friend I used for the last one with my mother.
Same experiences almost although some new ones popped into my head
new ones?
with whom?
The same friend. Like other memories I didn't think about in the last exercise.
haha yea that tends to happen
Things I've not remembered in years.
and what happens as you think of your mother now?
(there are many more gold nuggets in your brain your about to find btw ...)
The positive feelings are increased.
okay
and your father?
Same ๐Ÿ™‚ it's also really nice cause combining the happiness from friendship and adding that my feelings about my mum and dad. They are different feelings. Like I said, they died before the relationship made that change from me being a child to an adult. I was a difficult adolescent when they were here and well. So that is lovely. Experiencing feelings I wouldn't have been able to find when thinking of them! So that's pretty revolutionary to me
Great!
and can you see all 3 together?
Yeah
any more people you'd like to add in there?
(or might have joined already)
No. It was hard enough thinking in one lol
well
Pretty much everyone I could think of had something negative and upsetting attached to it.
other than your mom and dad anyone else you used to miss and want to feel more presence towards?
Except my old best friend
oh haha okay ๐Ÿ™‚
now
whenever you do an exercise that ends in good feelings
it's a good idea to run through the future again
and add to it all the new learnings
getting healthier and healthier still
what do you think?
remember practice makes permanent ๐Ÿ™‚
Sure. I'll go for another run ๐Ÿ˜‰ hehe
ahhh yes
one question before
the good feeling about dad
same smoke?
Yes
Although actually different colours
Cool!
so you going for a run to the future?
Uh huh. ๐Ÿ™‚
k there's something we gonna do after
if you wish
Great ๐Ÿ™‚ BRB
Back ๐Ÿ™‚
and?
Each time I head into the future it's getting better and better. And I'm sort of finding a pattern to how I do it too like I imagine getting ready to run putting on the socks, trainers, leggins, and running bra, tying my hair up, putting on a band. To hold it back then stretching and closing my eyes preparing to run. Focusing back on the exercise. Seeing the people with me. Seeing them in the positive situations with me. Then breathing in the smoke, and feeling it stronger and stronger. Then startting to run. Watching my life playing out in a haze either side of me smiling at what's happening. All the good things I wanted to see pausing each taking deep breaths of the positive smoke and breathing it back out towards all the events I'm seeing and watching it infuse the future images positively.
wow
that's amazing
It feels amazing.
how intensely does this compels you to run towards health and a brighter future
?
Very much. Before I started to learn with you I dreaded the future. Dreaded what I'd see round the corner. Anxious of what awful would happen next. Feeling no hope to get better but searching and searching in vein to find answers not wanting to give up. More because I'm stubborn and persistent rather than having hope.
This hasn't just given me hope. Its shown me how. And I believe I can do this now.
can do what?
Carry on, keep going. I felt like I was dying.
do you want to carry on and keep going like you used to be in the past?
No.
ok then
that's sounds like a good idea ๐Ÿ™‚
so you "felt" like dying
how do you feel now?
I feel like I'm alive.
buzzing? ๐Ÿ˜‰
Yes
Buzzing ๐Ÿ™‚
ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Lol
now
here's the sequence
everytime you have an intense good feeling
either by doing some of the tricks we've explored together
or by just "living"
run into the future and progress feeling more and more healthier
just like u've done now
and then
Sounds like a great plan
u can also insert one more piece
when you finish your run
u take all the good feelings
DOUBLE them
and teleport yourself to the earliest memory you have
so you go through all your memories and past events, with the new resources
as they become more and more a part of u
until you reach the present moment
and then you do one quick jolt into the future
because I know for example
there are many situations you had
in which
like your dream
u would benefit from having the presence of more loved ones
and hove more colorful smoke that flows through blood
yes yes?
Yes ๐Ÿ™‚
very cool
well
u want to continue?
I certainly do ๐Ÿ™‚
okay
u want to take the smoke and run through from the past?
Okay
cool
Back ๐Ÿ™‚
lol what r you waiting for
share!
I forgot to say that last night I did the exercise about getting more of a good feeling/resource again. This time is was for energy. And the memory was dancing. Dancing was a massive part of my childhood. I trained to be a dancer, did very well and performed on some big stages. Till I got unwell that is ๐Ÿ˜• had to give it up. Anyways I'm telling you cause this time I wasn't just running. I was dancing. Running and leaping through the past and stopping to dance at the various points I reached I wanted to experience and fill with smoke. And this time when I had finished my trip through the future. I danced on the beach. With my parents and my friend. And there were others, faces I've never seen that wanted to dance with me. Faces I had forgotten in the past. And I finished by stepping back from them as they carried in dancing into the night. I laid on the sand and carried on experiencing the feelings and the smoke and the intense pleasure. And I suppose now more expectedly had the whole body climax again. Haha sorry i was typing and coming back to earth ๐Ÿ˜›
that is so cool
say
It is isn't it
can you physically run now?
I havent tried yet. But I'm going to.
don't start full power
u'll have plenty of time for that
the physical body is always just a bit behind your amazing mind
No I won't lol
Yeah I as gonna say I think my body is defiantly getting better but it needs more time
the best way to do so
is start walking faster
in your sports cloth
and
quickly run in your mind
Yeah that's what I was thinking.
get all the good feelings
and then pick up the pace
for a little bit
Okay
Sounds good.
then run it quickly in your mind again
then you pick up the pce
pace*
for a little bit
then slow down a bit
run it in the brain
and so forth
and each time you do
u connect physical run with mind run
and that's when interesting stuff will begin to happen even faster ๐Ÿ™‚
Oooh ok
okay now
do you have a recurring situation
wait did we do time distortion yet?
No
Hehe yeah. Thx ๐Ÿ™‚
Back.
That was amazing.
Trying to remember the first thing I did now lol OK yeah so it was going into social situations. I have this thing like going into a party or gathering of people where I'm self conscious and stressed and wired and feeling like I don't want to be there I want to just hide (and often go to the bathroom for space)
It was all quite funny really, and the previous feelings got totally distorted.
On thinking of it it normal time I no longer felt stressed like I wanted to go to hide in the bathroom. So that's really good!
okay now
how do you feel about that?
I felt good like those situations will be much better for me.
Then I did the ecstasy junky thing ๐Ÿ™ˆ
haha
now remember what you do with intense good feelings?
Times them by 10 lol
An explode seems to be what happened lol
great
remember to run to healtheir and healthier futures now
I will ๐Ÿ™‚
What is the time distortion exercise meant to do for a negative and a positive situation?
lol what do you mean
(did your un to the future btw?)
I'm just trying to see if how I felt was how it was aiming to make me feel. Yeah. I ran a future positive situation after the past negative.
well
none of this is really "meant" to do anything
so keep your explorer hat on ๐Ÿ™‚
it's mostly exploring and learning
Hmmm I get you but what was I meant to learn? I'm just curious I guess lol
how to subjectively distort time of course
and how it can effect your experience
Yeah I get that. Ah I dunno it's probubly a stupid question really that is the answer that sums it up and I already knew that hahahaha
lol the stupid question is one unasked
these things that we do are really very simple and have no deeper meaning
other than you learn to alter your physiology and neurology at the deepest level of your core
so I'm curious
what happens now as you think of a future scenario
a social gathering
a party
fmaily dinner
etc
I don't have the same feels of dred. Feels like I'm in control of making it ok.
okay
how would you like to behave in those situations
if you could design every bit of it
more/less chatty
more/less conspicuous
more/less energetic
same for nice, caring, patient, whatever
for example
which type
of social situation
used to trouble you the most in the past?
Less self-conscious.
family gatherings?
parties with friends?
I want to hide
haging out?
Yeah all really. I love to. Socialise but find it hard. Initially. A while in I relax and it gets better.
okay
which one was the hardest in the past?
What you mean an event?
which type of event
I've just worked out why.
wait lol
jsut worked out what?
Why I feel self conscious and worried about how people see me and what they think of me.
was this like a realization you just had?
would you like to share with the rest of the class?
Yes. It just popped up from my past. You know I told you I was raped. It was after a party. I reported it to the police. My friends were asked to provide statements. The statements were read back to me. I didn't realise how much I was observed and judged. Most were lovely. Others said I was flirty, huggy, too trusting... Anyways. Every since that moment, I've felt like everyone is watching me and judging me in a social situation. I guess it's why a party came up as a what I first thought about.
So I guess I have to do this again for the party lol
well
what happens now as you think of that party?
and what happened?
I made everyone look really silly moving backwards it's helped.
u don't say ๐Ÿ˜‰
what happens now as you think of it?
Feels like it 's over. It's not going to happen like that again.
and how do you feel about that?
Good ๐Ÿ™‚
Excited to see how I feel at the next social thing I have to do
and it's not going to happen like that again ...
and what does it mean about you?
It means I can enjoy socialising more. Means I have made more progress to being happy and healthy again.
ahhh ...
being happy and healthy ...
and excited!
(dare I say ecstasy junkie?) ๐Ÿ˜€
u wanna do something fun real quick?
Lol yeah I'm that. When I got to. The end of the last one and it said I could go do it with something fun and positive I jumped right in haha yeah ok
okay now
take the happiness
and excited
and healthy
and start feeling the buzzing buzzing stronger
at your core of your core
marvel at the colors
feast on the smells with each inhale
and
think about the next social gathering you gonna have
and see yourself in that situation
being exactly like you want to be
just as chatty
just as conspicous
just as kind
just as patient
as you want to be
so you see yourself from the outside first
just as the gathering starts
and see yourself being you, exactly as you want
and when that image COMPELS to "jump in" and enjoy the gathering
just the way you want
then step inside the memory
I mean the scenario
and keep the ZZZZzzzzz's buzzing
and happy and healthy
and excited!
as more and mroe smells can fill more than just your lounges now
kapish? ๐Ÿ™‚
Lol
Indeed
I'm doing it
Everything is getting so vivid now when I'm imagining stuff
tell me more
I'm hearing, seeing, and smelling and tasting everything like you keep telling me to. But so much more intensely. It's like someone has switched my brain into. HD
Lol
indeed
because that you have CONTROL
so you can move through time
between time
and in time
past and future
and present
and
YOU get to choose
which situations you want to intensify to the fullest
(ehm ehm full body orgasms)
and which situations you want to decrease and observe from a distance
isn't it wonderfull?
It's amazing! I never imagined I could do all this. Or that it would work for my health. But I am already starting to feel better!
It's crazy. And it's been amazing
"been" amazing?
So far ๐Ÿ˜›
And is amazing
And will be amazing.
ha!
Lol
will be so much more amazing that's what it's gonna be
we gonna take this much further!
let me ask you now
u said you have doctor tomorrow?
I do
which kind of appointment is that?
A twenty min appointment focused directly on my fibro/me stuff
what would you do in this appointment?
Well I went to the GP (first point of call and ongoing general local doctor in UK terms) last week and demanded help. Said I'm not going to let my life get sucked up by this and I need help. I've been plodding along on pain killers for ages. I wanted to pick apart what's happening to me and get myself better.
okay
it's the first time you will do this kind of appointment ?
Not really. I've seen specialists and the all sorts. It's more that I stopped fighting for answers for a very long time. Then I started to get worse. And I decided I need to be pushing again. And that they might not really understand. I have too many symptoms to list in a 10 min appointment. Or discuss. So I went In with a list last week lol
okay
are there still any symptoms left at this instant?
Yes. But let me show you a list of where I was last week. It will be helpful for you to see I think. Hang on I'm copying and pasting.
Bruising on leg/ankles.
Water retention
Aching legs
Sore joints and muscles.
Painful hips and SI joint
Feet and legs roll outwards
Difficulty passing urine without conscious relaxation.
Pain down back of buttocks and thighs
Pain between shoulder blades and over
Severe thoracic back pain
Stiff joints especially morning
Pain in hands and long bones
Night sweats
Waking feeling sick with racing heart rate. Sweating and feeling unwell.
Severely painful back spasms in night
Fatigue
Weekness in arms and hands
Head aches
Sinus pain
Significant hair loss and thining
Vertigo
Malaise
Chills and fevers
Palpitations
Hot and sweaty surges seeming to come from upper back
Breathlessness
Rib pain
Chest pain
Comfusion
Memory loss
Poor concentration
Shakes
Weight gain
Cold feet and hands
Clumsiness and accidents several times a day
Feeling low
and right now?
I'm gonna amend it now
what's still left from those symptoms who bothered you?
Perfect
Bruising on leg/ankles.
X Water retention
X Aching legs
Sore joints and muscles.
X Painful hips and SI joint
Feet and legs roll outwards
X Difficulty passing urine without conscious relaxation.
Pain down back of buttocks and thighs
Pain between shoulder blades and over
X (not so severe) Severe thoracic back pain
Stiff joints especially morning
Pain in hands and long bones
X Night sweats
X Waking feeling sick with racing heart rate. Sweating and feeling unwell.
Severely painful back spasms in night
X (much better but still a problem) Fatigue
Weekness in arms and hands
Head aches
X Sinus pain
X (No hair loss when last washed it) Significant hair loss and thining
X Vertigo
Malaise
X Chills and fevers
Palpitations
X Hot and sweaty surges seeming to come from upper back
X Breathlessness
X Rib pain
X Chest pain
X (maybe a little foggy still) Comfusion
X (Memory improving) Memory loss
X Poor concentration
Shakes
X (Weight loss this week) Weight gain
Cold feet and hands
Clumsiness and accidents several times a day
X (feeling high!) Feeling low
Everything with a cross is gone or improved and sometimes a little more about that in the brackets.
WOW!
all that progress in ... how long are we working together?
2-3 days?
A few days.
that's INCREDIBLE!
Isn't it.
u know
at a certain time in the past
there were books and books
piles of evidence
scientific research
that concluded
100%
that an object heavier than the air would never fly
isn't it interesting?
and after that, there was even more research, about why men can never get to the moon
and before these two
there was evidence that transportation could not take place, if you don't feed your vehicle with straw or sugar every few hours
and after all that, there was ample evidence about Polio being uncurable
and before that,
the entire medicine profession declared Tuberculosis is, and always will be fatal, terminal, and deadly
interesting ...
isn't it?
and just until a few years ago
it was proven that you need to eat meat in order to build muscle
then this "Patrik Baboumian" dude came along as set the new world record for heavy log lifting
isn't it crazy?
and in 1900's, runners were trying to break the 4 minute mile
yet it alluded them
thus concluded by doctors and health professionals, such thing is a limitation no woman or man will ever break through
then this asshole "Roger Bannister" came along in May 6, 1954, and set the world record for 3:59.4,
and lo and behold
like mushrooms after the rain
more and more runners have run faster than ever before
breaking their old limitations
rendering once again, the entire medical community's findings false
say how do you know you lost wait?
lol weight
BRB distractions are the brain of my existence lol
Brain lol
Bain
lol didn't understand
Bane
Gah brains Brian bain. Fourth time correct lol
If typo was a language I'd be fluent.
LOL!
it's just that your fingers like to run fast as well
They dk
as hey maybe
Do
can you list all the symptoms that are still left?
I put on some trousers this morning and they feel loose. They were too tight a few weeks back.
Maybe it's all the full body organisms burning fat hahahahaha
lol
Organisms.
Haha
u just gonna have to have more and more and find out
Orgasms
and come harder to the conclusion
๐Ÿ™ˆ
;)
Lol well if you could have see my post I've time distortion exercise
hahaha
may god help us all
u gonna end up being a tantra female instructor
(which make a LOT of money btw!)
now
do you know what will happen tomorrow at the appointment
?
do you know the doctor? the staff?
I've seen her a few times. I don't know her as such. She's nice. And I feel totally comfortable with her now as she had to give me a breast cancer examination last week so nothing it's going to be more embarrassing than that lol
okay
do you still want to go tmrw?
I'm gonna work on that symptom list in a bit. I'm doing some work. Yeah I think I'll go but I don't Want or feel like I need to go anymore. I want it all logged on my notes what's happening with me health wise or when I do need it they don't seem to understand what's been going on.
And I never have long enough to explain. So having a rare longer appointment will at least get some history down on my notes. In case I need it for whatever. Like actually, she did find a lump last week. It's probubly benign she thinks, but I'm awaiting more tests. Some symptoms and things could be important to making sure nothing I can't control or make better is missed.
okay
just remember
doctors mean well
and they are wrong
many times
:)
like they have been wrong before
and will be wrongagain
Yup I agree.
doctor is mostly a reflection of what she learned in med school
which is usually the opnion of another doctor ๐Ÿ™‚
Hmm good way of thinking of that
well let me know when you want o continue learning!
yea keep your explorder hat on with her
whatever servs you best, that she says, you get to keep
whatever not, you can file awy
"more opinions I don't find beneficial"
:P
Sounds like the way to go for sure ๐Ÿ™‚ your a great teacher! Thank you
:D
lol btw
if your eally wanna
have some fun at the appointment
before you leave for there
do the intensify a good feeling thingie
feel the buzzing
time distortion
and have some explosion
zzzzzz
explosionzzzzz lol
and then right before entering her office
do it again ๐Ÿ™‚
so your in the state that induces within you what you want
haha I can see it now, and it's marvelous!
Hahahahaha what a plan
something to dream about tonight ๐Ÿ˜‰
๐Ÿ™ˆ
I'll probubly get marched out of the waiting room if I'm sat there making pleasure noises and groaning with my eyes shut and an intense expression on my face hahaha
well that would certainly be fun ๐Ÿ™‚
infact, why stop there? imagine everytime someone would mention the word "fibro" you'd have an explosion and everytime you'd think about the symptoms you used to have
lol or everytime you finish a run!
ok lol enough pleasure for today, go do so dome work lol
๐Ÿ˜› this does sound fun. It's certainly the best distraction. And actually, the whole after a run thing is probubly quite good. My mind told me that earlier. Cause the positive experience was erm you know. On the beach I always end up on after the future run lol so hey great idea haha.
AUG 25th 7:41AM
Hey!
what r you up to Florence Griffith?
Haha not running ๐Ÿ˜› not long been up nearly 7 in the UK. Everything ok there? Had my docs appointment. She was really lovely and encouraging. Told her about the stuff we were doing too. She's not doing much else other than ordered a xray of my back which is pretty much all I wanted her to do. So it's all good. Working hard for my next pay hence my silence. Got myself a summer cold too. Pfft
good news about the doc ๐Ÿ™‚
working -> sewing at home?
Yes. I am doing some pattern tests. So designers send me them via pdf and I print them and make them up. Sometimes do the tutorial pictures explaining how to make. Then take modeled shots of them. I get paid for that ๐Ÿ™‚ until I can sell to customers again that's what I've been doing
if you want to amp up your health, U can do the
and pick experiences in which you felt most vibrant and alive
I'm sure you could find a few ๐Ÿ˜‰
Yeah ๐Ÿ™‚ I could. I'll do that in a sec making a cuppa. Are you ok?
no
I'm fantastic!
ok became too boring for me some time ago, so I traded up ๐Ÿ™‚
Done ๐Ÿ™‚ I wonder how I'll be today after that. I need energy today - apart from working gotta pack for camping.
I don't rememberif we've done it already,
another thing to do is
Yeah we have but it's one that I think I'll use a lot!
go back to a situation
u felt very healthy and vibrant
suck all the goodness from that situatin
I did that
inteisify the feeling
then you move to another one
and add all the good feelings from that
so you go through a few of health
a few of excitement
a few of focus
I see keep going through a few compounding the feeling each time yeah
and spin the feelings faster each time
eaxctly
andadding different goodies
so you end up with excitement + focus + energy
Okay. Sounds brilliant.
+ whatever you want
oh and also
when you step into a situation
Yeag
two things
Yeah even
2. you can add sparkles to the feeling
Oooh
so as you feel the feelins traverse through your body, add tingling sparkles
and
when you are in a situation
Okay
u can jump into someone else's body
so if your running, and next to u
or somewhere nearby
Ok
there's someone running real fast
u can jump to HIS point of view
and run like him
I'm sure he wouldn't mind lol
Lol
and if you want to get real trippy
Which I like lol
you be him running, watching Julianne run along
and U can also motivate and coach Julianne as you do so
Oooh
that's real trippy tho
U HAVE BEEN WARNED ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
;d
:D
I can handle the trippy lol
OK will do, back soon ๐Ÿ™‚
AUG 27th 10:58PM
Hey sorry had to rush and pack for a little camping. It's the bank holiday weekend here. No cell signal most of the weekend. Just caught the WiFi standing round a fire lol hope all is well. I'm home tomorrow
AUG 28th 4:54PM
campiiiiiiiiiing
been a while ๐Ÿ™‚
how was it?
Yeah I go quite a lot ๐Ÿ™‚ love it. Had a nice weekend! Just got home
lol take a shower stinky
Lol I have you know I Had a shower yesterday haha
After being in a stinky lake so it was kind of needed haha
well I'm anxious here how was the latest brain hack I gave you?
AUG 28th 6:44PM
Sorry I was unloading the car and had to charge up my phone. It was amazing ๐Ÿ˜› earth moved haha I had a busy day ahead though so I didn't spend as long as I'd have liked being totally immersed in it and had to peel myself up and get on. I think I'll make a date with myself tomorrow morning to revisit that ๐Ÿ™‚
I've felt very positive. But I'm not feeling so well. But that's much better than feeling totally dead which is where I'd normally be after a camp
that's great news!
so in the past what were your old reactions after a camp?
I'd be totally unable to do anything for days really. In pain. Exhausted. Low. We shall see, looking good so far
okay good
"But I'm not feeling so well" is that like physical resiude from the past?
i mean, like a very mild version of what you used to have?
Possibly. I have other stuff wrong with me which seem to be the main issues at the min. My back is hurting. But that structural. I have a curved spine. You can't tell from looking at me. Have a form for an xray actually so I wonder how that is now. I think much of what I feel now is being very unfit. I've been poorly for so long. It's hot here too! Also I was canoeing yesterday which wouldn't have helped my back at all lmao
Camping chairs. Sleeping on camp beds. Camping food. Plus I have to inject vitamin b12 for pernicious anaemia. That's got its own symptoms too.
okay
well, I actually have something for that too
:)
You do?
but you let me know when you have time and desire
Your a box full of tricks are hard you? ๐Ÿ™‚
"I plead guilty your honor"
Ill be good in the morning. Before I have to work.
Lol well I won't complain one bit ๐Ÿ™‚ one day it will make you rich and famous. Any more willing volunteers stepped forward?
i don't remember if from that group
and I can't offer anything
(admin orders...)
Pfft. Well you aren't forcing anyone and they don't have to pay you. They can walk away if it's not for them. Shame cause this could be so helpful to so many people
well
i had an idea last night
how you can help more people actually
Yeah?
well I think if you copy paste the symptom list you sent me
people would get very interested
Yeah I can do that. I am going to do more than that though.
oh?
do tell m'aam
I'll show you very soon. I need a bit longer to finish it ๐Ÿ™‚
lol you know I'm a curious cat
I do ๐Ÿ™‚
say
do you have a routine before you go to sleep?
No. Should do really. But being unwell most days I'd just work as hard as I could throughout the day. Rest a bit, work a bit, and vice versa till I hit a brick wall and stagger to bed lol
okay
I have something very useful for u
to turbocharge your path towards ecstasy and health
Okay
okay
when you get into your bed
cycle through past events
the ones in which you feel the most vibrant
alive
bathed in health
and do the thing you bath yourself in the good healthy feelings, and then jump to the next one
remember that one?
Yup
now
as you do so
think about the good sleep your about to have
and see yourself waking up in the morning 10x times more vibrant and healthy
10x times the energy
Oooh this sounds like a good plan
now the thing is
this will condition your brain
and your body
to cycle this FOR u
on autopilot
while you sleep and dream
dunno what kind of reminders you use btw to remember these kinds of things
this trick is very uplifting
just remember not to jump to hard from the bed u are still not 120% yet!
Lol ๐Ÿ˜›
What in the morning or during hahaha
Seriously though. Sounds such a great idea
I shall try it tonight
well yea imagine all the good feelings you could be having during the night!
we want to squeeze every moment of your being towards buzzing vibrant colorful feelings
Ah that would be divine ๐Ÿ™‚
Sleep well my friend! And thank you ๐Ÿ™‚
Hahaha he's cute
Should I have said "Take it eaaaasssy maaaannn"
AUG 29th 12:51PM
lol yes
relax, it's just life ๐Ÿ™‚
AUG 29th 6:33PM
ha!
hey can I ask you something? I might have asked already
sorry lol too many people I lose track ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
Don't worry
It's all good. Loads of people is very good.
lol me and worry don't go along
we broke up a long time ago
I think it's over for good this time
AUG 30th 11:05AM
hey J!
how awesome are u
feeling
ya*
Im good ๐Ÿ˜€ what?
I really want to share our chat with others and wanted to ask u if I can put it on my site and I can hide your face and name if you wish
yeah thats fine
I think it will give many Firbo / CMS peeps hope
because many really believe ther'es nothing to do ๐Ÿ˜ž
i know they do ๐Ÿ˜ž
nope thats fine, anythiung to help
really???
oh wow your DA BEST!
im just quiet here as i have a pretty mental work week haha
but its all good
wow that's amazing
I'm so thrilled
say did you do the night routine?
๐Ÿ˜€ ill be back though. I should be done with this by friday so i can chat with you more over the weekend and throw you some more funds for your time hehe
lol
oppps sorry
i was laughing at someones pjs
not you ๐Ÿ˜›
lol
okay I will send you a link once it's shatred
shared*
u have no idea how happier you made me now!
โค awwwww im glad i can help!
u help more than you know
(lol still super curious about whatever it is your cooking and not telling me!)
i will help you as much as i can.
:P
so after you do the night routine for about 4-5 nights straight I can show you something more advanced
ah that haha well it will help you
ok ๐Ÿ˜€ yes ive done it once, dropped off in the chair last night digitalising a tshirt image on the comp zzzzzzzz
I gotta say I had hundreds and hundreds of students over the years u are one of my favs by far!
okay I gotta go
laterz!
โค awwwwww
your my fav teacher of all time ๐Ÿ˜€
ok have a fab day ๐Ÿ˜€
haha I've been teaching since I was 6 lol
:O
must be your calling for sure
if you wanna have a quick read
oooh ok will do

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