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Clearing lifetime of OCD and guilt in one session

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  • Intro

  • Notes from the session

  • Verbatim transcript


Intro

Date of session: AUG 27th, 2017
Client's Name: Jennifer (Psuedo)
Age: 31
Diagnosis: OCD
Medium of communication: Facebook chat

Jennifer had anxiety, obsessive thoughts, compulsive behaviors and rituals for as long as she can remember. At age 24 she witnessed her sister getting hit by a drunk driver, which left the sister blind and brain damaged.

Jennifer blamed herself for the accident and for what happened to her sister, and since the accident the compulsive behavior and rituals got worse.

Today she has no more guilt, no anxiety, and as you will see below, she took a video of herself breaking each and every old "OCD" pattern while laughing about her old behavior.

If you or someone you know still suffers unnecessarily, do contact me and we'll start gearing you towards a brighter future ASAP.


Notes from the session

You are about to see my notes about the 11 interventions we've done in this session, followed by a complete unedited word by word transcript of the conversation. Some of the "dry" details were slightly altered to preserve her privacy.

I want you to notice the general background feeling of the interaction, as you go through this. The "11" interventions are powerful on their own, but it's not as powerful as me doing this entire session as one long induction, in which I clearly set the frame of me having control and that as long as she continues to do what I say, her problems WILL be over, and there's just no two ways to go about it.

I will write a dedicated post for frame control later on, but for now just notice the ongoing "tone" I'm setting here.

This is something I'm harping on with many of my students and colleagues. The client needs to KNOW and feel ONE HUNDRED PERCENT that there's just no way I'm going to let her stay the same way. It's just not an option.

Let's begin ...

Right out of the gate, she pretty much gave it away:

J: "OCD is your head telling you to carry out rituals and do things perfectly or something bad will happen ... If I don't do these things my head tells me something bad will happen"

She has an internal dialog telling her "do this or else ..." At a later point she also mentioned the voice is followed by visualizations of loved ones dying.

Intervention #1 - Slowing down internal dialog

So the first things I've done with her is changing the way she talked to herself. I had her choose one of the more "nasty" sentences she had going on, and running it through the internal dialog scrambeler, a tool to slow the tempo of the voice methodically.

She reported immediate relief: "I feel much less stressed and almost see the funny side ... I am very chilled out and not panicking"

Then we generalized the learning and ran the same process on more nasty sentences she was saying to herself, until it became automatic, and she could literally not talk to herself that way anymore. I do this with almost every client, and I've found it to be immensly useful and powerful. This is the turning point of hope and belief. When a client literally cannot engage in the old behavior, and cannot make herself feel bad, it's like a positive "point of no return."

At this point all the internal dialog that used to terrify Jennifer was now laughable and actually inducing calmness.

Intervention #2 - Building want and anticipation for the future

I leveraged that state to build want and anticipation towards a brighter future after the "condition" will be "cured", using clean language and hypnotic patterns. AG: "did you expect to feel so calm before we started? ... and to be able to laugh at those sentences? ... you did not expect to feel as good so fast, did you? ... take a moment to think about all the things you will do when life is much easier"

This is also something I do with amost everyone I work with. It's a sneaky little trick to engage the client in unconscious positive processes, because I KNOW Jennifer did NOT expect to feel this way, and I want her to start wondering what else she can feel great about without expecting it. It's a very useful state to have your client in, especially since I've found almost 100% of clients (and people) I encounter tend to look for what's wrong and what COULD go wrong in their lives, and be in constant state of dread.

This is a simple and quick way to start switching a person's grid in which she sees life through. There's only so much we can percieve in any given moment, and the more I can tune her RAS (reticular activating system) towards good feelings and experiences, the more she will notice (and create) them, and the less place she will have left for negative stuff.

Intervention #3 - Recoding future visualizations of loved ones dying

Before we've done the internal dialog scrambeler on the "do this or else" voices, she mentioned she has visualizations of loved ones dying following the voices. Her internal method to generate the compulsive behavior was: Internal Dialog - "do this or else" -> Visualizations of loved ones dying

Even tho the first part of the strategy, the internal dialog, was broken/cured, I did not want to leave her nasty visualizations "floating around" her psyche.

It's not needed "per se", but it's fast and easy to do, AND it will teach her more about running her own brain, so it strikes me as a good return for our time together.

I had her run the trauma relief process on one of these visualizations, and during that a past trauma has popped up ...

J: I'm getting mixed up with an event in the past that did happen and my visualisation

Intervention #4 - Clearing the trauma of the accident

I had her use the trauma relief tool on that "event in the past", and she said:

J: It's probably the first time I've not cried thinking about the past event ... It's still upsetting having it okay in my mind but I'm calmer

Since there were still negative emotions ("still upsetting") I've proceeded to walk he through the process, step by step.

This is when I learned about the accident of her sister (the past event she was referring to).

I've found that when working with traumas and bad experiences, one of the key points for healing is identifying a "before" and "after" moments, in which the person is perfectly safe.

Jennifer picked an "after" moment which is after the accident itself, but still dealing with it:

J: I felt sorry for her she was a mess and covered in blood blaming herself

This happens from time to time, as most traumas will have two parts: The event itself, and the "dealing" with the event afterwards and thinking about the consequences.

In our story here, the plot thickens, as the accident was followed by 2 years of her sister being hospitalized, so there's no clear "after" moment in which there's no trace of the event. If that's not enough, her sister suffered brain damage AND got blind following the accident, and that still goes on today, so I had to be creative here.

Intervention #5 - Inducing positive state and finding a positive hook after the accident

I had her find of the best moments in time after the accident, in which she feels really good, and it's a pure positive moment. Then had her intensify the good feelings of that moment with the feel good generator tool.

The point here was:

  1. Get her out of the negative state she was in
  2. Find a strong positive feeling to "hook" the end of the accident to. This moment will serve as the "after" moment for the trauma relief process we'll do on the accident memory.

In that memory she is 26, holding the hand of her new born baby sister, feeling "Proud and full of love, Excited". That's 2 years after the accident.

J: My tears have stopped I feel happy and relieved

So point 1 from the above was achieved. I had her intensify the good feelings even more and then repeat the process from her baby sister's POV. The reasons for doing this deserve a dedicated post of their own, so briefly the benefits from doing this is:

  1. Intensifying good feelings even more, but from a different angle (and a different area in the brain).
  2. Experience her own love towards her baby sister from the recieving end.
  3. Experience herself through the eyes of someone who loves her AND feel protected by her.
  4. Since this is done under the context of the accident, we are connecting more and more positive emotions to the accident.

Intervention #6 - breaking the compulsive rituals (mentally)

Since I got her high on good feelings I felt this is a good chance to see how she feels about the compulsive thoughts and behaviors WHILE feeling so good.

Many people make the mistake of NOT thinking about their problems when they feel good.

I found many times the simple process of making a good feeling and then thinking of a problem is enough to dissolve it completely.

AG: let's do a little test, what were some of your old triggers?

J: Things not being equal 🙈 fear of number 3, things not in order or not closed properly

Notice the monkey overing eyes emoticon here. She can't believe that was actually her once!

Time to move in for the kill ...

AG: does that sound silly to you now?
J: Extremely
AG: laughable?
J: Yes embarrassing
AG: lol I want you to see yourself doing some of your old behaviors ...
and notice how silly was it ...
to live that way ...
and notice ...
which kind of laugh does that induces within you the most ...
describe that laugh to me 🙂

This is an extremely high packed moment in the session, let me break down what's going on here ...

  1. let's do a little test
    Presupposing this is nothing big, we are going to test something trivial

  2. what were some of your old triggers?
    Presupposing it's all in the past now:
    What WERE some of your OLD triggers, and not what ARE some of your triggers.

  3. does that sound silly to you now? ... laughable?
    Attaching silly feelings in the present to her old past triggers

  4. I want you to see yourself doing some of your old behaviors
    "see yourself" - Dissasociating
    "old" - stacking past presupposition
    "behaviors" - before we applied silliness to the triggers, now we are addressing her behaviors directly

  5. notice how silly was it ... to live that way
    "silly" - attaching silliness to her past behaviors themselves
    "was" - stacking more past presuppositions

  6. notice ... which kind of laugh does that induces within you the most ...
    This is an intersting comparison I have her do here. I'm asking her to go through all the kinds of laughter she knows, and try out her old compulsion triggers with each one, and notice which one is the STRONGEST.


It's an elegant way to get her lost in different types of good feelings (different types of laugher), and unconsciously link them to be induced by what USED TO BE her problems and unwanted behaviors.

This is one of the benefits of going into deep altered states (deep trance) while working with a client.

Going over this now, I literally find it hard to believe that was me producing that sentence.

There's so much packed into that moment, it's way more than a conscious mind can process in a split second. I did not thought in my head "hmmm let's make her compare between different types of laughters".

This is me surrendering to the "flow" of the interaction, and I highly suggest you do the same with your own clients. My best moments (almost) always come from being in this state, when working with clients and otherwise.

  1. describe that laugh to me
    Intensifying the strongest laughter feeling from the comparison in point 6.


I then proceeded to intensify the laughter feeling, add sparkles and a color to it (induce synesthesia), and have her go through all her past compulsive behaviors and increase the silly feeling with each one, and increasing the synesthesia by adding a smell to the feeling.

Intervention #7 - breaking the compulsive rituals (physically in real life)

While spinning the good feelings, I had her break all her old compulsive behaviors one by one, and making a joke out of each one in between.

Intervention #8 - Future pacing a life without the problems

I had her spin and integrate the silliness feeling while going forward through time, imagining her next 20-30 years laughing at her old limitations.

Intervention #9 - Video of herself breaking old behaviors

This is not something that's "required" per se, but it's a good amplifier. I want her to have a tangible "trophy" for this experience, and a physical proof of how silly her old behaviors, which she percieved as collusal problems, really are.

Our minds can be tricky devils, and any past experience can be distorted to fit a narrative, so having a recorded video will make sure this will be available for her to watch, enjoy, and remember, for years to come.

Also, I want her to have an extremely powerful resource as an anchor that past limitations do not need to affect her anymore in a way that is not useful, and that any situation can be turned around to a positive one.

Intervention #10 - Clearing the guilt from the accident

We did another trauma relief process on the accident, with two main alterations:

  1. Just before starting, have her watch the "trophy" video she just made of breaking old habits

  2. Have her end the process this time in the point in which she learns about her mother pregnancy, and the baby sister she is about to have. This is mainly for hooking the end of that memory to hope and anticipation (for her soon to be born baby sister)

All her guilt was gone:

J: It feels clearer and I don't feel guilt

Intervention #11 - Establishing sister as cue for good feelings

I then had her intensify the good feelings from clearing the trauma and everything else we've done, induced synsteshia, and elicited a metaphor for the good feelings, which she described as a white clear liquid.

Then had her think about the next time she sees her sister that had the accident, and enjoying that liquid with her. I want her sister to now be a cue for GOOD feelings, instead of the old feelings of guilt, shame, and compulsive thoughts.


Verbatim Transcript

AUG 27TH, 1:12PM
OCD is your head telling you to carry out rituals and do thinks perfectly or something bad will happen. In my case, I have to do everything in 4s and everything has to be equal. If I drop something out of one hand I need to do it with the other, if I stub my left toe I need to do it with the right. I roll on my deoderant 4 times on each armpit. If I don't do these things my head tells me something bad will happen. I sometimes fight the urge and tell myself it's nonsense, how can i be responsible for something bad happening because I done something 3 times and not 4?? I also have to 'touch wood' several times a day when negative or bad thoughts enter my head (in doing it now because I've just typed that). I have to have all my tins facing forwards in the cupboard and they have to be lined up, my food in the fridge goes in a certain way too. Again, if I don't do this something bad will happen. Hope this helps you understand a little. I can't even understand it myself it's crazy, extremely frustrating and embarrassing.
I canunderstand it perfectly
this helps a lot
now
let me ask u
u keep saying "or something bad will happen"
I'm guessing this is something you say to yourself, correct?
either out loud or internally
Yes in my head
okay
The voice in my head is my own voice lol like in arguing with myself
give me an example of one of those sentnces
Go back and touch that door with your left hand so as it's equal with your right hand or your mum will die (TOUCH WOOD!!)
Slightly freaking because I've just typed that
so you say to yourself this entire sentence?
"Go back and touch that door with your left hand so as it's equal with your right hand or your mum will die"
Not entirely it's more like go do it and the other part of me is like no stop being so silly everything is fine and the other part is saying no do it or bad things will happen
I can't fight the urge
So hard to explain 😳
well
I'm asking
something simple 🙂
u have recurring things you say to yourself
which are bad
so
I'm asking
give me one of those things
word for word
verbatim
okie?
It's always about someone I love dying
Never me
yes give me an example
word for word
of something you say to yourself
about someone dying
Make it equal or mum will be knocked down
I get visualisations not just the voice
"Make it equal or mum will be knocked down"
okay
the voice comes first, then the visualizations, correct?
Yes
perfect
take that exact sentence you just told me
"Make it equal or mum will be knocked down"
and run it through this:
try it and tell me how was it
I feel much less stressed and almost see the funny side
I know it's crazy but I always give in to the urge
I am very chilled out and not panicking
so that sounds good to me
Yes
okay now
do it again with another sentence
Ok
Done 👍
ok now
what happens now as you try to think about it the same way as before?
The urge is still there to touch wood but I feel stronger than before and know it's nonsense in my head
I'm worried if I don't touch wood something bad will happen but in fighting it longer than before
so you can't make yourself feel as bad as before?
no no, don't fight
no need for that
Ok I've touched wood and feel relieved
I'm definitely more relaxed
we'll get to the touch wood part
good
now
do you want me to revert you back to the old feeling?
I can do that you know 🙂
Yes
now
do the same process on another thought
u might notice it gets easier / more automatic every time you do it
Yes I didn't need the link this time lol
okay
so far you've done it on how many sentences?
Three
okay
and they all seem laughable now?
Yes 🙈
lol
okay
do you have any sentences left?
Not just now
so no more sentences? really?
interesting ...
how do you feel about that?
I'm not carrying out any activities so don't have the urge to fix things so don't feel anxious at the moment
I feel really calm just now
great
did you expect to feel so calm before we started?
and to be able to laugh at those sentences?
No I'm surprised because I didn't think someone could help my though process
surprised huh ...
so you did not expect to feel as good so fast, did you?
No 🤗
isn't crazy?
u can learn to feel good so unexpected?
about things that used to bother you in the past?
how interesting that is??
I wonder if you also wonder, as you wander more around those wonderful feelings, what else didn't you expect you can learn to feel good about
what else didn't you think you can learn to feel good about so fast?
Myself
and yourself ....
and how would it feel like
when you learn to feel good about yourself
without expecting it?
and after you do, how much better off your life is as you learn to feel good about that?
It would be amazing
Life would be easier
and it would be amazing ...
and life would be easier, wouldn't it?
Much
and much easier ...
Yes
now
take a moment to think
about all the things you will do
when life is much easier
and it would be amazing
take a few moments to do that
then we move on to the next piece
👍
Ok
done?
Done
u mentioned something about images you have in your mind, correct?
Yeah
explain to me a bit about those
without getting too much into the content
I visualise the accident happening
so that sounds like a movie right?
not a still image
Or finding a loved one not breathing
Yes it's like a clip
okay
perfect
first about the accident
run it through that process
let me know as soon as you're done
BUT FIRST
i have to ask u
will you miss those thoughts about the accident?
I won't miss the thoughts at all
I'm done
okay
how was it
It was ok
I'm getting mixed up with an event in the past that did happen and my visualisation
PERFECT!
u are such a fast learner
now run that process on that past event
Ok2
Done
and?
It's probably the first time I've not cried thinking about the past event
I think having it on 'mute' helped
that sounds good to me!
how do you feel about that?
It's still upsetting having it okay in my mind but I'm calmer
Play *
okay
do it again
is it a memory of an accident btw?
Yes
okay run the process again on the same memory
I seen my you nger sister being hit by a drunk driver in a car
notice some parts might seem even easier and more autoamtic this time
Ok
The picture was smaller and faster
okay
now describe to me this process in your own words, step by step, before we make it automatic
Talk you through the picture ?
oh
lol wrong person!
my bad
ok so now when you think of this memory of the accident
are all the bad feelings gone yet?
did you add the circus music btw?
No they won't ever be
Yes I added silly music
okay
now
describe to me this process in your own words, step by step, before we make it automatic
like what you've done
the process itself
I've imagined a very small me standing in a very dark street at the beginning, then fast forwarded to the end where my sister is away in an ambulance. I then rewind from the end back to the beginning playing silly music in my head. There is no other sound that's blocked out
okay
so that is part of the process
let me walk you through it
so first see yourself at the beginning of the memory
in a small screen, far far away
make it black & white
mute the sound
and freeze it at the beginning of the memory
before anything has happened
Ok
what was your age in that memory?
24
so you see 24 years old Jennifer in that screen
far far away
small screen
before anything has happened
and everything is okay
got it?
Yeah
perfect
now
fast forward the memory as fast as you can all the way to the end, after everything is over and okay
do it fat
like a cartoon
and keep thescreen far far away and small
and muted
Done
u know how a cartoon
okay
now
I want you to step inside the memory, next to 24 years old Jennifer
Ok
so your right there with her
is there anything you want to say to her?
or hug her?
It's not her fault
touch her in a certain way?
talk to her in a certain way?
and tell her everything
I want to hug her
everything she needs to hear
and touch her just the way she needs to be hugged
and take all the time you need
and let me know when you're done
Done now
Perfect
now
choose how you want to enter her body and become her
so you step inside her body
and your 24
and you see what you saw at the time
and hear what you heard
got it?
Yes
okay
let me know when you are inside
through your own eyes
and 24
I am
okay
now start the circus music
and rewind the memory as fast as you can
all the way to the beginning
when everything is okay
so you see everything in reverse
and hear everything in reverse
let me know when done
Done
okay
how is it different to experience it like this?
It was really difficult to be back there I'm really upset now but I'm coping
I normally shut off the memory
I want to be back where it was all ok
what do you mean be back?
When I had to see and hear it happening
wait I'm not following
u ran it in reverse through your own eyes correct?
all the way to before anything happened?
Yes and want to be back there before anything happened
yes did you run it all the way to that point?
Yeah
okay
now
what's your age today?
31
okay
31
now when you think of the same memory
how is it different
compared to before
It's much quicker
Silent
okay
better than before you've learned the process?
Yes
good
any bad feelings left?
Yes
how's your sister today?
It's ongoing as my sister is now blind and has brain damage from the accident so I think the hurt and upset will always be with me because I can't change anything
I wish I could help her
okay gotcha
do you miss her?
Madly
okay
now this makes sense
that's good we are going to cover that as well
is the accident in anyway related to you?
No just that I was there and I feel like I could have stopped it from happening but realistically i couldn't have
I was shouting on her to come back to get a taxi with me but she didn't hear me then the car appeared and hit her
okay
remember when you steped inside the memory and talked to your 24 years old self?
and hugged her?
We had just left the pub
Yes
how was that?
I felt sorry for her she was a mess and covered in blood blaming herself
did you feel better after talking to her?
A bit
oh
wait
covered in blood you say?
okay
I want you to find a point after that memory
in which everything has passed
it could be a few hours later
or the next day even
and she is okay
No she's worse
She was in hospital for 2 years
She was initially given 2 hours to live but somehow managed to pull through
okay
now
in the last 8 years
there were moments in which you felt better
and moments in which you feels not as good
Yes
yes
now
find one of the better moments
when you were 24-27
after all had happened
Ok
a brief moment would do
no need for a "period" in which everything was awesome
a single moment in which your having fun will do
Ok
got one?
Yes
okay
now
how old r you in that?
26
Perfect
now I'm going to walk you through the same process
this time
the end moment
is that moment when your 26
what are you doing in that memory?
My baby sister was born in holding her
I'm *
and what r you feeling in this moemnt, holding her?
Proud and full of love
Excited
and proud and full of love
and excited!
great
do this
on that moment
let me know when you're done
Done
and?
My tears have stopped I feel happy and relieved
ahhhhh ...
and happy and relieved ....
u have many happy memories with your baby sister?
Lots ❤
and Lots!
now
let me teach you something nifty 🙂
to the same thing
on another good memory with your sister
and when you peak the emotions of that memory
jump to another
then add to the intense love
peak it
and jump to another
over and over
and cycle through them
and then I'm going to show you something even cooler 😉
there's so much good in you that you have forgotten about for far too long Jennifer
and it's time to let it all out
you deserve it and the world deserve it
😢
now I'm gonna guide you through this
u have already another memory with baby sister?
Yes
okay
so you understand the steps?
Yes
ok great
lemme know how was it
Very positive and bright
lol I mean when you're done 🙂
I've done this step twice, do i do it again
and when you peak the emotions of that memory
Ok
Done
and?
Feeling good
did you enjoy that?
Yes
Great
u wanna try something even better?
Of course
do the same thing
and this time
jump to the body of your baby sister
so you see and feel Jennifer and hear Jennifer
Ok
and do the same thing jump from memory to memory
u are in for quite a ride 😉
That was fun 😂 ❤
lol it was wasn't it?
Yes
okay
now
at this point
do you feel and compulsion for anything?
feel any *
No none
hmmm ...
interesting
feel liberated ? 😮
Yeah lol
yea ...
u want me to revert you back to your old compulsive thoughts?
I can do it
because I have a powerful sorcerer friend
Ok!
ok what?
I'd rather not have the compulsive thoughts again lol
oh really
okay
now
do you have any other memory from the past that still affects you in a way you don't want to?
other then your sister, we'll get to that
No I don't
okay now
let's do a little test
what were some of your old triggers?
Things not being equal 🙈 fear of number 3, things not in order or not closed properly
okay
does that sound silly to you now?
Extremely
laughable?
Yes embarrassing
lol I want you to see yourself doing some of your old behaviors
and notice how silly was it
to live that way
and notice
which kind of laugh does that induces within you the mos
most*
describe that laugh to me 🙂
more of a belly laugh?
Yes a chuckle
and a chuckle!
lol and can you chuckle now?
remember in school
I am
sometimes your almost exploding with chuckles
and trying to hold yourself
and the teacher is getting furious
lol
😄
and you feel like your about to explode laughing to death
and keep that feeling of silly chuckles within u
and spin it faster and faster
and what color does this feeling have
when it chuckles?
and it's silly?
Yellow
and a yellow chuckle!
and where do you feel yellow chuckle the most?
My belly
and is yellow chuckle feels better with sparkles or without sparkles?
when it's in Belly?
Ooh sparkles
Always sparkles
and sparkles!
and can sparkle flow and spread from belly?
when yellow chuckle starts in Belly?
Yes
and yes!
and keep making this feeling spinning faster and faster
and see yourself in more and more situations
in which
u were acting in your old behaviors in the past
and notice how silly it was!
and keep spinning yellow chuckle with sparkles
and keep going through more and more silly old behaviors
and the more old behaviors you see, the more silly it will seem!
Yes!
and let me know once you get through them all
Done
now do you want to make everything 4 times?
No
well
where else did yellow chuckle spreaded?
does it reach the legs?
Face and to my fingers
and face and fingers ...
and uh ... if yellow chuckle would have a smell
and what smell does a yellow chuckle has
when it starts in belly
and spreads and flows
and face and to fingers
and sparkles?
My favourite perfume
Gucci
and your favorite gucci perfume!
and can you spray favorite perfume once?
on right arm?
Yes
and how does fav perfume smells when it's on right arn?
Clean
and Clean ...
and as you smell more of fav perfume
and gucci
and chuckle and sparkles
and what do you want to do next?
Relax in a bath!
🤔
what would seem silly the most?
Counting the times I have to turn the taps lol
lol
and as you do so
keep the feeling spinning
and go turn the tap once
and keep the feeling spinning
and chuckle in belly
and sparkles
and try not to laugh so teacher won't get mad
Done 😂
and move on tin
move one tin
so ....
what's this??
a rebelious tin??
this is an outrage!!!
😂
how does a tin dare rebel against the order of the kigndom!
knights! off with his head!!
feed him to the dragons!
😂
and can one tin Rebel?
and keep the feeling spinning
when it chuckles start in belly
and face and to fingers
and smell Gucci
Rebel tin
OMG!!!!!
Cupboard door closed
did the police raid your apartmenet yet?
did the troops stormed in?
because I will take the blame
tell them it's all me!
Nothing. No one died
but they will never catch me alive!
😂
I'm master of disguise and conjuring you c
now
can a pencil fall on floor?
oh poor little pen ...
lost in the big big floor
all alone ....
and keep the feeling spinning now
faster and faster
and who shall stand a stronger punishment rebel tin or castaway pen?
No one lol everything is ok
lol
one pen on floor?
I used a comb
Yes
lol what's a comb?
u inventing words now?
For brushing hair 😄
hmmm ...
let's see now ...
our list of suspects is running thin m'lady ...
I'm afraid we gonna have to start planning to for a brighter future now
there's just no choice
u must accept this terrible fate
u know what will happen next right?
right after you roll deodorant 1 time on left armpit
there's no coming back after that 😀
Ahhhh 🙊
u gonna have to keep spinning feeling
Done
and more and more chuckles
and more sparkles
and if you won't watch it
u gonna be stuck in good feelings
then you gonna start earning more money
people will respect you more
enjoy you more
u gonna sleep better
OH oh ...
and you know what that means ...
u gonna have to spring out of bed in the morning more refreshed and vibrant then ever before
and make even more money
and shine even brighter
😊
people gonna start getting inspired by your presence
geez will it ever end?!?!
U are genius
now
here comes the best part!
take all that you feel now
and all that you learned
and all the chuckle
and all the silly
and yellow
and sparkles
and keep the feelign spinning
and start moving forward through time
go through more and more experiences
and the more you grow up
the more yellow chuckle becomes a part of u
the more you find yourself laughing at more and more old limitations
the more possibilities open up
the healthier and happier you can feel
and close your eyes and do it now
and let me know when you're done
and keep moving through time
at least 20-30 years ahead
and keep the feeling spinning
Done
I feel hypnotized
"look deeply into my reptalian eyes child ..."
😂
and try not to laugh!
DISQuALIFIED!
Lol
so how does life seem to you know m'lady?
POSITIVE
Clearer
Happy
I can't thank you enough I feel relief
I'll do my very best in every situation with my yellow chuckle Gucci sparkle
if you enjoyed
leave a review so others could learn from your success 🙂
🤗 ❤ thanks so much for your time
and like and share 🙂
also I have an interesting idea for you!
do you have anything to take a video with?
like your phone?
My phone
make a video, right now, of you laughing at all your old behaviors
go over the rebelious Tin
and the castaway comb
and the uneven deodorant
then later you decide who to share it with
what do you think ?
My best friend will be so interested she has OCD worse than me
I feel great and in control
I'll make a video after my bath lol 👍
cool! 🙂
if you share it I will be so delighted
and leave feedback 🙂
and send your friend over, I'd be happy to introduce her to Ally
Ally?
😂
have you forgotten him already?
:(
he is a powerful sorcerer with a bad temper
better stay on his good side lady!
I will definitely recommend u
And thanks to you and ally ❤
:)
I gotta go now
catching a flight
I have some more tricks to show you, this was only a glimpse of what your capable of
but it's a good start 😉
All the best take care. I will let you know how I am getting on in a week or so
I'd love to see your video, if you decide to share, up to you of course
enjoy your batg
(been so long since I've had one really ...)
MON 1:09AM
I'm here for the next 6 hours, if you wanna cram in more goodnesss 🙂
MON 8:51AM
That was the middle of the night for me lol just up
MON 1:29PM
Lol
Whatsup!
Greetings from Albania, just landed
Glad you had a safe journey 😊
How was your awesome day so far 🙂
Yeah great, getting a bit frustrated as I've done my 'equal' things a few times. Not because the voice is telling me to but just completely out of habit. Think it'll take me a few days to completely stop
lol
u are too funny!
😄
how many years did you have your silly routines you used to have?
As long as I can remember 🤔 got worse after Sara's accident though
lol
so
for years and years you had your old limitations
then in one day you learns to turn them into laughter
AND U HAVE THE AUDACITY TO FEEL FRUSTRATED FOR DOING THEM A FEW TIMES OUT OF HABIT??
😂
lol that's even sillier than the old things themselves!
Very true!
also
I told you we haven't finished yet!
but if memory serves, there's something you promised to do first, didn't you?
What was that?
the video!
share it with whom you wish, or not, but make it!
Ahhh! I'm shy 🙈
lol it's only for u
no one will ever see it
this is important!
Ok so what should it involve
just u
breaking all your old patterns/behaviors/routines
and getting excited / laughing with yellow chuckle in tummy with sparkles as you do it
pretend your talking to the you nger u
and telling her how one day she will meet Ally and laugh about it all
doesn't that sound to you like a nice video to have?
imagine looking at it in the future with your friends
Yes. But if anyone finds my phone they will think I'm psychotic 😂 😣
I'll do it
holding your head in disbelief
"lol look guys that was once me!!! I used to do those things like lol wtf????"
ok then we continue to some nifty stuff
after the video, do this:
remember?
pick some new experiences / feelings
Ok 👍
MON 4:33PM
back
MON 8:37PM
Done both video and link
Ready for more?
I am 🙋‍♀️
Why are you helping me 🤗
lol what is that smily?
after the "i am"
Raised hand lol
oh haha
cool
well I'm on a mission
that's why I help EVERYBODY
I'm fine with living on donations for now
me no need material posessions m'lday
U are a very good person
:)
well
on my todo list is to write my mission page
I will get to it eventually
so ...
out with it!
how was doing the vid?
lol I think I'm more excited & curious than you 😮
I kept laughing lol felt silly talking out loud and videoing the old habits
yup
told you!
c listening to me and ally is a good idea
😄
now
u said
after your sister's accident
the next "good" moment
was the birth of your baby sister
and feeling her presence for the first time
correct?
Yes
okay
now
before that moment
did you feel a growing anticipation and want & desire
for her to be borned
and for you to feel baby sister for first time?
Yeah of course
how much time before the birth did you know about your baby sister pregenancy?
6 months
okay
now
in those 6 month
the growing anticipation
and want & desire
u remember the point in which
u were told about the baby sister?
Yes
okay
in that moment
as you think of it now
what do you think?
lol I mean
what do you feel
is it your mom telling about baby sister on the way?
Overwhelmed with excitement
ahhhh
Yes my mum
now
I'm going to show you a trick
I want you to go back
to just BEFORE
u were told about baby sister
so
in that moment
u still have no idea baby sister is about to join your life
understand?
Yeah
okay
now
this point is the end
the beginning
is
before you knew about the accident
so that's the beginning of the tape
Ok
and at that moment
Jennifer is just having a neutral moment, yes?
Yes
okay
now
remember the steps
put the tape in the small screen
far far away
muted
and don't press play justyet
let me know when you got it, okay?
Got it
okay
now
u know the sound cartoon make
when they are fast forwarded?
Yes
okay
now
in a moment
I will ask you to fast forward that movie
so you see Jennifer in the screen far far away
fast forwarded
all the way
Yeah
to the point
BEFORE she learns about upcoming baby sister
got it?
Yes
now
just before you press play on that cassete
Watch the video you just made
about the old habit
s*
then as you laugh about that
press play and watch Jennifer being fast forwarded as fast as possible
to the end
understand?
Ok
okay
do it now
let me know when it's at the end
Ended
perfect
now
do you see her
at the end
jsut before she learns about baby sister?
Yeah
ok now
step inside the memory next to her
Ok
and
hug her if you wish
(do you?)
and
whisper in her ear
Not yet
that
she is about to receive the best surprise in her life yet
and tell her about a very silly video of her future self she is about to watch 😉
does this makes sense?
Perfect sense
perfect
let me know when you're done
Ok done
ok now
embody her
so you become 24 years old Jennifer
c what she sees
Ok
hear what she hears
and
feel the anticipation of the surprise you still don't know aout
about*
remember the silly of the video of your future self
and
rewind as fast as you can
hear the circus
all the way
to before anything has happened
Ok
Done
ok now
how was that?
Slight sore head now 😄
ok
now
as you think of it now
how is it different from before?
What the accident ?
yes
Very short
Skips lots of parts
okay
now
how does that feel?
Good
and Good!
now
where does it feel good
when it feels good?
My head
and in your head
It feels clearer and I don't feel guilt
and clearer!
and ...
where does clearer moves
when it starts in head?
and what color does clearer has?
My heart
Clear is white
clear is white!
and from head to heart
and ...
can clear is white spread?
and can it flow?
It flows
and it flows!
and where does clear is white flows
and it flows
and in head
and heart
From top to bottom. Everywhere
and from top to bottom
and everywhere!
and if this feeling would have a color
and what color does it have now
and it's clear is white
Still white
do more colors
and still white ...
because white i the perfect color isn't it
for clear feeling
from top to bottom
and everywhere
Yes
and when it's white
does it have a shape or a size?
It's liquid
and it's liquid ...
and a clear white liquid ....
now
this liquid is very interesting isn't it?
did you know you had it inside of you all this time?
Nope
ahhh ...
isn't it interesting?
Very
can you begin to wonder
as you wander around
white liquid
what hidden treasures
u are yet to discover
in the depth of your existence?
just imagine ...
if white clear liquid
that flows from top to bottom
is there
and was hidden in plain sight
what else might hide in plain sight?
💭
how exciting it is to get up tmrw
and the day after
waiting
anticipating
the next uncovering
yet another unveiling
😊
of a long hidden inner treasure?
now
keep this feeling spinning
and
as you do so
think about the next time
u are going to see your sister
and see her
and touch her if it's possible
and feel sister getting her dose
of white liquid
when it flows you as well from top to bottom
and everywhere
and in chest
and in head
and I wonder
what smell does a white liquid has
when it's clear and flows from top to bottom
Fresh outdoor smell
and if a white clear liquid would have a sound and what kind of sound does a white clear liquid has
when it fresh outdoor smell
can fill more than just your lounges
It sounds like the sea
and it sounds like the sea ...
and does sister enjoy feeling the liquid?
She does ❤
and does sister enjoy being around u
when your so vibrant
and alive
with clear white liquid running through your veins
filling you
Yes
as you feel it more and more
and who else
enjoys you now
more than your old self
how many people
enjoy you more
when white clear liquid
feels from top to bottom
and notice how others are reacting to u
as you get more and more vibrant with life
and how much people can be drawn to everything that so naturally flows through and from u
as more and more people can begin to unwrap the gift of your existence
as more and more inner treasures become unveiled inside of you now
and do you see loved ones?
and do you see people enjoying?
Yes!
and yes!
and what else do you see now?
My son and partner happy also and my sister smiling. A bright future for us all
and a bright future for you all!
now
do you want me to revert you back to your old self?
your old behaviors?
your old feelings?
this is your last chance
No 🙈
and no ...
and how much better
life of son is
now that you know what you know
and I want you now
to see him growing
and as he grows
notice how much better his life improves
as you grow with him
and the more you grow, the more liquid
and more liquid, the more his life enriches
and the more his life enriches, the fresher the smell
the brighter the white
the happier partner is
the brighter future shines on us all
and keep going through time
and you will know when to stop
when all that has been dormant for too long now integrates
as a natural as breathing is to you now
and then
and forever
and do it now
I love this 👍
and love this ...
now
this is the perfect time
to
go break
every litttle old trigger you used to have
and now
in addition to the yellow chuckle
and sparkles
as you break more and more old patterns
feel the liquid more and more
and watch son growing more and more
and I highly suggest you make a video as well
without thinking
let everything pour outside
does this make sense?
Yep just doing a video
PERFECT
Done 😊
Haha how was making this video?
U gonna have to add a new entry under "skills" in your CV
Good, easier than the last one lol
Might even start a YouTube channel now
I will be honored to be your first subscriber
😂
Just remember me when you get rich and famous!
I bet you feel pretty all mighty and invincible from now eh?
I feel good
I told this is just the beginning 😉
so start planning the bright future 😉
Thanks again 😊
now think of all the people
still having the old behavior
not knowing what's possible
haven't found their liquids and yellow chuckles yet
I thnik
u are in a great position to help them
I want to help my friend
that's very noble of u

Adam Goldman OCD my ass- Adam “OCD my ass” Goldman

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