by "Shattering" you meen "Shit"? no clue what you ment.
"That's a very interesting guy citing Arthur C. Clark, during a reality shattering talk in 1999, attempting to reach out to the next generation's minds."
oh, yea that's a different page
read just the one I've sent you
I just clicked the "I got your back"
Thats why i ended up on that page.
ok that's enough for now
so the intrusive thoughts you said
that is stronger than others
how many words
My phobia is seriously terrible, i can get many introusive thoughts on bloody thoughts and disgusting ones too.
Based around gore.
I have a realy bad phobia and they make me feel feint.
Infact, one night we were watching TV and i fell feint on the floor when it was about stop smoking, and it showed him spitting out a bit of blood ect.
so there are things you say to yoruself in your head
and they are intrusive, yes?
Yes, Once i think of one they just keep comming
They dont stop
Untill i like start playing a game or something
Or watch tv.
give me an example of one of those things
word for word
Like i said before, I was of school for four months since i kept having a problem with the exact same introusive thoughts, gore, and not just that, i remember in school, one hit me and i fell feint in class.
I saw someone with a bloody leg, from cutting it and my mind focused on thoughts based around blood
And wouldnt stop.
when you think about blood
do you see it on yoruself?
so think of blood right now
I see myself having the same problem
I can see myself ewww.
Ewww, i was about to say
Theres this one thought
I'm going to ask you something a bit weird
that picture of yourself that you see
I keep thinking about being spit in half and blood po- ewwww.
hey stay with me here
when was the last time you were in the cinema
or saw a movie?
preferably a good one
a WHILE ago, the last time i saw a movie wasnt tto long, i actualy remember the thought which made me feel feint in school? happened in a movie
I watched the night before
if I will ask you watch the same movie, on a small black and white screen, far away, with no sound, would you enjoy it as much?
Not realy, i hate something if it has no sound
now I'm going to as you to do something more
think of that same picture of you fainting, and project on a small far away B&W screen
how much different is the affect you are getting from making this picture
I dont understand
I want you to see yourself in one of those time that you fainted, and push the picture you have in your mind further away from you
and make it smaller
also I want you t ofreeze the frame
so you see Oliver
just before he noticed anything
like before the "event"
Let me know when you are done
freezing the fram
so you see Oliver just before anything had happened
Wait, So freeze it before i feint or before i see the bloody leg
before the bloody lo
so you see him in a neautral situation
he doesn't know about the leg yet
so he is perfectly safe
Also what is his age in that past memory
Im gonna be fourteen in about six-teen days.
see 10 y/o Oliver in that picture?
in a small B&W screen far far away
I want you to find a moment AFTER that event. when Oliver is perfectly safe again
so after everything is over, and it's just a neutral (or positive) moment\
I want you
to see Oliver
in that screen
in a fast forward mode
as fast as yo ucan
from BEFORE anything had happened
to AFTER everything isover and you are perfectly safe again
and without sound
so it's muted
you see 10/yo Oliver there?
frozen in the moment after it's all over
in a small screen far away
now I want you to step inside Oliver,
and rewind the memory as fast as you can, through his 10 y/o eyes
that's the first step out of two
just for the meantime
how was it?
which part you enjoy the most?
When i got sent home
I got sent home and distracted myself by watching TV
Then the introusive thoughts cleared for the day
and explain to me in your own words
what did you do with that memory>
Not anything, just like stopped thinking about the memory you told me to think of and concentrated on replying with this comment
I mean the steps we've just done
pushing the screen, making it b&W, etc
I visualised it in my head
did you run it in reverse
through your own eyes?
how is it now when you think of it
how do you feel about the same memory
Just a whiz.
and how did you feel before doing the process?
I felt chill, That thought has been an old thought for a long time
that you know the steps
I want you to think about a thought that you make that still affects you in a way that it not useful
something you think about too often
whatever comes to mind
I have nothuing in mind
so thin about blood
the picture that comes up
think about blood
what if i feint
ill keep thinking about the blood.
And it will drive me crazy.
and notice the picture that comes up
and freeze it and push it away
is that a past memory or an imaginary scenario
Its a scene i watched from a movie recently
Were the guy gets split in half, ew that thought
do the same thing
so you see yourself looking at the movire screen
what is your age in that past memory btw?
I watched it this week
seeyourself looking the the movie screen
at a scene
that you can see Oliver from last week there
*Facepalm, This week lol..
before that scene that scared you
Not last week.
let me know
when you see Oliver in there
and you see whim at the point he watched the movie
and he is perfectly safe
just like you did with the previous memory
before anything had happened
li see = I understand or
li see = DONE
I See = Done, Done = I see, I see = don - Mum : Please shut the fu-
Mum dosnt realy act like that.
Just imagining myself in a scenario were mom shouts at me for repeating the same thing over and over again xD.
Anyways, Carry on.
Dunt leave meh hanging
do you see Oliver there watching the movie
at a point before anything had happened
and it's a neutral picture in your mind?
so that's before he sees the leg right?
Wait, What, i thought u told me to think of another time and i thought we were basing this around the guy who got split in half
In the movie..
you are right
just a sneaky way for checking you are following
so now run the same proces
I see, I get ya.
so you see Oliver in that memory
as fast as you can
fast forward so he gets to the end
after everything is over
and he is perfectly safe again
Not to mention was watching this movie with a friend at the time, and since they guy had just been split in hafl he told me to stop thinking of that scene and to enjoy the movie
do the same thing as before
step inside Oliver
and rewind it all the way to the beginning
as fast as you can
Opens door to Olivers arse
now before we add another piece
how was it?
Rn, when i think of them thoughts, i think what your trying to show me is that instead of thinking of the thoughts, i need to bring myself back to when things were fine.
I dont exactly get it completely
What is Rn?
RN RIght Now
you rewinded the memory through your own eyes?
now when you think of that same memory
how do you feel about that same memory
Wait, When i think about it., its hard to think of it as a bad thought rn, its just flying freely in my mind
It goes through my mind so fast
I can think of the body just splitting and then thoughts over.
isn't that interesting?
Wow, ive noticed something
did you expect to feel this way towards that?
are going quick as hell
through my mind
They are poassing so quickly
they are passing quickly ///
did you notice that before?
What you mean
u say u've just noticed them going quick s hwell
are they gone already?
They passed already
Wow thats pretty cool when i think about it
I know your mom learns quickly
but you might have just broke the record
Adam thats so cool, Idk its just when i think about it and its gone after 2 secs
And i think nothing of it
do you want me to revert you back to your old behavior?
because I can you know
I have Ally by myside
What you mean
That's Ally, my pet gator sorcerer
he is very powerful, you'd be smart to stay on his good side
If your saying me reverting back to me thinking of these thoughts slowly, nah, I swear i feel so much happier i can pass them thoughts like a wiz i mean damn, i only just noticed than when i rethink them thoughts they pass so quickly i think nothing of it
try this just for fun
try to think about the same memory and not feel good
Its realy hard
To feel feint
From it rn
like REAL hard
I guess you are broken man!
let's see other memories,
and see if they already gone
which other blood bad memories you had in the past?
now that you look it like this
how is it betteryet?
better yet *
There is one problem, The dripping blood from a cut thought still gives me a slight SLIGHT ew,
Why does this song make me giggle a bit when i think about the thought at the same time
because you are a fast learner
lol man you are really breaking records here
Im smiling rn that i can freely think of these thoughts and not have any bad emotions come from it
Jeez, Man this is pretty cool
I was 14 when first using this
I mean 16
at 14 I hat a very bad thought that also hunted me in the past as well
and at 16 I've found these brain hacking tools
Your a genius
Wanna know my technique which temporarily fixes it?
we have the next step for now
Excited to fix more of my problems
Imagine in a day its like
go through the next thought about blood that you are not smiling about yet
and do the same process
noticing which parts are easier / more automatic than the last time you've made it
well how was it?
Yea, it worked on that too, Cutting a vein, Passes quick, Its like i can think of a scissor cutting my vein but its so quick i dont have any like bad thoughts from it
It passed quite fast too
any other thoughts from the past?
Not that i can think of
what are you going to do with it?
The same thing i always do
The thing you tought me
remember the circus music
and you can try another music and see which one you like more
The circus music works gud
Im done with the new thought
This realy works
we are only getting started man
Sick, So theres more
if you love this, you are going REALLY love what's coming
think about blood
and feel what happens
and if it's all positive yet
At first i thought when u were msging me was ehhh,t his is borriinng but when u told me to think about blood again
i was like
so what you think about blood?
When i think about blood
I just think of it as a liquid rn, and its natural
picture yourself a few days from now
stumbling upon blood
notice what happens
The thoughts are so much weaker, Even without using the method, the thoughts dont make me go EW anmore.
about those thoughts you keep mentioning
is that something you still say to yourself in your head?
like "omg somethng bad about to happen, I'm going to faint" etc?
Im certainly not thinking about blood thoughts rn.
Not sure on other types.
Like being stabbed
what about being stabbed
When i try to think about it, its certainly ALOT weaker
give it a second or two see if it already starts to be able to dissolve
It did, already
I just thought of it and i was done with that thought
so it's automatuc now
u have ofiicially upgraded some major parts of your brain
think about gettintg stabbed
Yea, it realy dosnt hiit me at all, i can forget that memory easily
now try to find a past memory that would have made you feel something negative in the past
I cant thnk of any
now thing about any future scenarios
and future thoughts
that would have made you feel bad in the past
notice if you are already smiling more about them
you nailed me
or sometimes they seem silly in retrespect
Im smiling rn
When i think of the circus song and me getting stabbed it just makes me laugh all i can think about it he just rans past stabs me then the thoughts over and the circus music just makes the thought sound ridiculous
So it triggers me to laugh
HOW DARE YOU
I thought it was a serious problem!
Have you no respect for problems?
The Stabbing III in movies now, The whole movie
is just a three second length long movie
try again to make yourself feel bad
search any corner of your brain
don't leave anything unturned
we want to be thorough here
its SOO hard
to find any thoughts
trigger me to go ew
nothing is rn.
try to bring any bad feeling
you don't want to be stuck in good feelings now, do you?
When i think of a bad feeling i generely cant think of it properly like at all, I mean things which make me regret something, just like dont give me the hit they did before.
Like by hit i mean
haha so what did you say about regret?
think about the things that would have made you regret in the pat
Idk i regret alot of things, but currently i cant think of any which are realy pushing me to actualy had a bad feeling.
why did you talk to me in the first place?
what was the thing that you wanted to be able to do?
Simply because i didnt want these introusive thoughts to drive me crazy, you tought my brain how to pass these thoughts
in a matter of seconds
and think nothing of it.
about the regrets
Not to mention
Sometimes i leave school early over mass introusive thoughts
let's see how good you can learn to feel about the regrets
Which spread my mind
You were saying about the stabbed and u said u thought that was a serious problem
never mind that
Im confused myself
Idk if you read what i said right, i ment the cirus music changes my mood and it sticks in my head when i think about that thought, so it chears me up so i giggle a little bit
oh haha okay
Thats what i ment
yea that's what I understood before okie cool
any of the regrets make you feel bad?
the past regrets
when you think about one of them now
Lemme try think of one
Even after loosing my best friend its hard to regret anything i did before which made me loose him
I mean, its hard to explain
about that friend
do you miss him? (or her?)
Miss him alot like alot, but im having trouble regretting anything whcih made me loose him to be honest