Oliver

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  • Date of session: OCT 5TH, 9:51PM
  • Name: Oliver Gale
  • Age: 15
  • Diagnosis: Anxiety, OCD
  • Medium of communication: Facebook chat

Intro


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Verbatim Transcript + Notes

OCT 5TH, 9:51PM
Hello.
Its Juliane Barleys Son.
You there?
Hi man
Heya
It's a pleasure working with your mom, what do you already know about what we are going to work on?
and the things we've done with her
Ahh, She actualy told me to speak to you about my OCD and Anxiety issues?
oh
so you need to resolve them, but you do not know how to do it yet, correct?
Yup.
how do you know you have OCD and anxiety issues?
With OCD, in art i keep trashing pictures i make when theres the slightest thing rong with it.
With Anxiety, I keep getting introusive thoughts and i always feel that something bads gonna happen to me.
Great.
I guess there are more behaviors you attribute to OCD, yes?
I Guese, I actualy dont fully understand OCD, all i know about OCD is it pisses you of when something is out of place, but others have different types.
ok
more or less, how many behaviors or rituals you are doing you attribute to OCD?
so I could get a rough idea of what we are working with here
None actualy at the moment, i was actualy of school for four months, Yup, Four months since i was getting extremely bad introusive thoughts if you didnt know already, I have a phobia of blood?
I did see some therapists.
But they didnt help me that much.
Though i enjoyed meeting them.
oh okay
Im such a computer addict,
ok
let's go with the intrusive thoughts first
Alright.
do you know how I get my results that I get btw?
What you mean sir? Or adam.
Whatever you want me to call you 😛
Adam 🙂
I'm going to give you some things to try,
Alrighty.
so read this:
and tell me as soon as you are done
the sooner the better
Alrighty.
I like your sense of humour.
me too!\
by "Shattering" you meen "Shit"? no clue what you ment.
where?
It states.
"That's a very interesting guy citing Arthur C. Clark, during a reality shattering talk in 1999, attempting to reach out to the next generation's minds."
oh, yea that's a different page
read just the one I've sent you
I did.
I just clicked the "I got your back"
Thats why i ended up on that page.
ok that's enough for now
Alright.
so the intrusive thoughts you said
is there
one
that is stronger than others
Yes.
Way stronger.
ok
how many words
My phobia is seriously terrible, i can get many introusive thoughts on bloody thoughts and disgusting ones too.
Based around gore.
I have a realy bad phobia and they make me feel feint.
Infact, one night we were watching TV and i fell feint on the floor when it was about stop smoking, and it showed him spitting out a bit of blood ect.
wait
so there are things you say to yoruself in your head
and they are intrusive, yes?
Yes, Once i think of one they just keep comming
They dont stop
Untill i like start playing a game or something
Or watch tv.
ok
give me an example of one of those things
word for word
Like i said before, I was of school for four months since i kept having a problem with the exact same introusive thoughts, gore, and not just that, i remember in school, one hit me and i fell feint in class.
okay gotcha
now
I saw someone with a bloody leg, from cutting it and my mind focused on thoughts based around blood
And wouldnt stop.
when you think about blood
Yes.
It like.
do you see it on yoruself?
so think of blood right now
I see myself having the same problem
I can see myself ewww.
okay
now
wait.
Ewww, i was about to say
Theres this one thought
I'm going to ask you something a bit weird
that picture of yourself that you see
I keep thinking about being spit in half and blood po- ewwww.
hey stay with me here
Alright 🙂
ok
now
when was the last time you were in the cinema
or saw a movie?
preferably a good one
a WHILE ago, the last time i saw a movie wasnt tto long, i actualy remember the thought which made me feel feint in school? happened in a movie
I watched the night before
ok
now
if I will ask you watch the same movie, on a small black and white screen, far away, with no sound, would you enjoy it as much?
Not realy, i hate something if it has no sound
exactly
now I'm going to as you to do something more
think of that same picture of you fainting, and project on a small far away B&W screen
and notice
how much different is the affect you are getting from making this picture
I dont understand
Sorry adam.
ok so
I want you to see yourself in one of those time that you fainted, and push the picture you have in your mind further away from you
and make it smaller
Done
okay
now
also I want you t ofreeze the frame
so you see Oliver
just before he noticed anything
like before the "event"
makes sense?
Yes
Let me know when you are done
Done what?
freezing the fram
frame*
so you see Oliver just before anything had happened
Wait, So freeze it before i feint or before i see the bloody leg
before the bloody lo
leg*
k
Done
so you see him in a neautral situation
he doesn't know about the leg yet
so he is perfectly safe
Yup
Also what is his age in that past memory
ten
Im gonna be fourteen in about six-teen days.
Great
now
see 10 y/o Oliver in that picture?
in a small B&W screen far far away
Yea
Great
now
I want you to find a moment AFTER that event. when Oliver is perfectly safe again
Done
so after everything is over, and it's just a neutral (or positive) moment\
Great
now
I want you
to see Oliver
in that screen
in a fast forward mode
as fast as yo ucan
K
from BEFORE anything had happened
to AFTER everything isover and you are perfectly safe again
and without sound
so it's muted
Done
okay
now
you see 10/yo Oliver there?
frozen in the moment after it's all over
Yes
in a small screen far away
Great
now I want you to step inside Oliver,
and rewind the memory as fast as you can, through his 10 y/o eyes
understan?
Okay
that's the first step out of two
Done
okay
now
just for the meantime
how was it?
which part you enjoy the most?
When i got sent home 🙂
I got sent home and distracted myself by watching TV
Then the introusive thoughts cleared for the day
okay
and explain to me in your own words
what did you do with that memory>
Not anything, just like stopped thinking about the memory you told me to think of and concentrated on replying with this comment
ok
I mean the steps we've just done
pushing the screen, making it b&W, etc
I visualised it in my head
okay
did you run it in reverse
through your own eyes?
Yea
okay
how is it now when you think of it
how do you feel about the same memory
nothing realy
Just a whiz.
and how did you feel before doing the process?
I felt chill, That thought has been an old thought for a long time
Great
now
that you know the steps
Ya?
I want you to think about a thought that you make that still affects you in a way that it not useful
something you think about too often
hmmm
whatever comes to mind
I have nothuing in mind
ok
so thin about blood
and notice
the picture that comes up
"so thin"?
Im confused
think about blood
what if i feint
ill keep thinking about the blood.
And it will drive me crazy.
and notice the picture that comes up
and freeze it and push it away
Alright
Done
okay
now
is that a past memory or an imaginary scenario
Its a scene i watched from a movie recently
Were the guy gets split in half, ew that thought
okay gotcha
now
do the same thing
so you see yourself looking at the movire screen
what is your age in that past memory btw?
I watched it this week
oh okay
Very recent.
so
seeyourself looking the the movie screen
at a scene
that you can see Oliver from last week there
*Facepalm, This week lol..
before that scene that scared you
Not last week.
This.
Weel.
xD
week*
okay
now
let me know
when you see Oliver in there
and you see whim at the point he watched the movie
and he is perfectly safe
just like you did with the previous memory
before anything had happened
Ii see
li see = I understand
or li see = DONE
I See = Done, Done = I see, I see = don - Mum : Please shut the fu-
xD
Mum dosnt realy act like that.
Just imagining myself in a scenario were mom shouts at me for repeating the same thing over and over again xD.
Anyways, Carry on.
Adam?
yes
Dunt leave meh hanging 😞
okay
now
okw
okay
now
do you see Oliver there watching the movie
at a point before anything had happened
Yup
and it's a neutral picture in your mind?
Perfect
so that's before he sees the leg right?
Wait, What, i thought u told me to think of another time and i thought we were basing this around the guy who got split in half
In the movie..
yes
you are right
just a sneaky way for checking you are following 😉
OHhhhh.
so now run the same proces
I see, I get ya.
so you see Oliver in that memory
Yup
as fast as you can
fast forward so he gets to the end
after everything is over
and he is perfectly safe again
Done
Not to mention was watching this movie with a friend at the time, and since they guy had just been split in hafl he told me to stop thinking of that scene and to enjoy the movie
now
do the same thing as before
step inside Oliver
and rewind it all the way to the beginning
as fast as you can
Opens door to Olivers arse
*Climes in
Climbes*
I ment.
lol
Done rewinding
okay
now before we add another piece
how was it?
Rn, when i think of them thoughts, i think what your trying to show me is that instead of thinking of the thoughts, i need to bring myself back to when things were fine.
I dont exactly get it completely
What is Rn?
RN RIght Now
ok so
you rewinded the memory through your own eyes?
Yup
ok
now when you think of that same memory
how do you feel about that same memory
Wait, When i think about it., its hard to think of it as a bad thought rn, its just flying freely in my mind
Chill
Rn
oh
It goes through my mind so fast
well
I can think of the body just splitting and then thoughts over.
isn't that interesting?
Yea.
Wow, ive noticed something
Them thoughts
did you expect to feel this way towards that?
yes?
are going quick as hell
through my mind
They are poassing so quickly
they are passing quickly ///
...
did you notice that before?
What you mean
u say u've just noticed them going quick s hwell
are they gone already?
Yea
They passed already
lol already?
Wow thats pretty cool when i think about it
damn brother!
I know your mom learns quickly
but you might have just broke the record
Adam thats so cool, Idk its just when i think about it and its gone after 2 secs
And i think nothing of it
:D
now
Thankyuu
do you want me to revert you back to your old behavior?
because I can you know
I have Ally by myside
What you mean
That's Ally, my pet gator sorcerer
he is very powerful, you'd be smart to stay on his good side
:D
If your saying me reverting back to me thinking of these thoughts slowly, nah, I swear i feel so much happier i can pass them thoughts like a wiz i mean damn, i only just noticed than when i rethink them thoughts they pass so quickly i think nothing of it
now
try this just for fun
try to think about the same memory and not feel good
k
Its realy hard
To feel feint
From it rn
oh my!
like REAL hard
that's it?
I guess you are broken man!
:D
okay now
let's see other memories,
and see if they already gone
which other blood bad memories you had in the past?
Hmm
Dripping Blood
ok
now that you look it like this
how is it betteryet?
better yet *
There is one problem, The dripping blood from a cut thought still gives me a slight SLIGHT ew,
Good
now
do the same process
which steps do you remember?
I remember
Imagine it in a black and white screen
With no sound
Imagine the thought as fast as possible
And imagine it in your own eyes in rewind
as fast as possible
yes
and sicne you already got the basics
let's do a slightly more advanced version now
so let me know when u r at the end
seeinf Oliver AFTER everything is over
Done
ok
now
before you rewind it though your own eyes,
play this in the background
k
Why does this song make me giggle a bit when i think about the thought at the same time
weirrddd
because you are a fast learner
lol man you are really breaking records here
eyyy
Im smiling rn that i can freely think of these thoughts and not have any bad emotions come from it 😛
Jeez, Man this is pretty cool
Gotta say.
I agree
I was 14 when first using this
I mean 16
at 14 I hat a very bad thought that also hunted me in the past as well
and at 16 I've found these brain hacking tools
Your a genius
well
so
Wanna know my technique which temporarily fixes it?
later, sure
ahk
we have the next step for now
Alright 😛
Excited to fix more of my problems
Imagine in a day its like
Jesus christ.
go through the next thought about blood that you are not smiling about yet
and do the same process
Okay
noticing which parts are easier / more automatic than the last time you've made it
done
well how was it?
Yea, it worked on that too, Cutting a vein, Passes quick, Its like i can think of a scissor cutting my vein but its so quick i dont have any like bad thoughts from it
It passed quite fast too
:P
okay
any other thoughts from the past?
Not that i can think of
Wait
One more
what are you going to do with it?
The same thing i always do
The thing you tought me
exactly
remember the circus music
Yup
and you can try another music and see which one you like more
The circus music works gud
K
Im done with the new thought
Yup
This realy works
So well..
we are only getting started man 😉
Sick, So theres more 🙂
if you love this, you are going REALLY love what's coming
:D
now first
Im exciteeedddd
think about blood
and feel what happens
and if it's all positive yet
At first i thought when u were msging me was ehhh,t his is borriinng but when u told me to think about blood again
i was like
wait
WOOOAHHHH
xD
lol
so what you think about blood?
When i think about blood
I just think of it as a liquid rn, and its natural
okay then
now
picture yourself a few days from now
stumbling upon blood
notice what happens
The thoughts are so much weaker, Even without using the method, the thoughts dont make me go EW anmore.
anymore*
okay now
about those thoughts you keep mentioning
is that something you still say to yourself in your head?
like "omg somethng bad about to happen, I'm going to faint" etc?
Hmm
Im certainly not thinking about blood thoughts rn.
Not sure on other types.
Like being stabbed
okay
iDK
okay
what about being stabbed
/?
Hmm
When i try to think about it, its certainly ALOT weaker
okay
give it a second or two see if it already starts to be able to dissolve
It did, already
Perfect
I just thought of it and i was done with that thought
xD
perfect
so it's automatuc now
u have ofiicially upgraded some major parts of your brain
Oliver 2.0 😛
:D
now
think about gettintg stabbed
Alright
Yea, it realy dosnt hiit me at all, i can forget that memory easily
ok
{LIKE}
now try to find a past memory that would have made you feel something negative in the past
I cant thnk of any
okay
now thing about any future scenarios
and future thoughts
that would have made you feel bad in the past
notice if you are already smiling more about them
you nailed me
or sometimes they seem silly in retrespect
Im smiling rn
xD
smiling???
When i think of the circus song and me getting stabbed it just makes me laugh all i can think about it he just rans past stabs me then the thoughts over and the circus music just makes the thought sound ridiculous
So it triggers me to laugh
xD
HOW DARE YOU
WHUT
I thought it was a serious problem!
xD
Have you no respect for problems?
The Stabbing III in movies now, The whole movie
is just a three second length long movie
lol
now
try again to make yourself feel bad
search any corner of your brain
k
don't leave anything unturned
we want to be thorough here
its SOO hard
to find any thoughts
to like
trigger me to go ew
nothing is rn.
try to bring any bad feeling
regret
shame
anything
Alright
you don't want to be stuck in good feelings now, do you?
;)
When i think of a bad feeling i generely cant think of it properly like at all, I mean things which make me regret something, just like dont give me the hit they did before.
the hit?
Like by hit i mean
Bad feeling
:P
haha so what did you say about regret?
think about the things that would have made you regret in the pat
past*
Idk i regret alot of things, but currently i cant think of any which are realy pushing me to actualy had a bad feeling.
okay
now
so ...
why did you talk to me in the first place?
what was the thing that you wanted to be able to do?
Oh
Simply because i didnt want these introusive thoughts to drive me crazy, you tought my brain how to pass these thoughts
in a matter of seconds
and think nothing of it.
oh okay
now
about the regrets
Plus
Not to mention
Sometimes i leave school early over mass introusive thoughts
let's see how good you can learn to feel about the regrets
Which spread my mind
Btw
Im confused
About something
yes?
You were saying about the stabbed and u said u thought that was a serious problem
ahh no
never mind that
so
Oh
Im confused myself
Idk if you read what i said right, i ment the cirus music changes my mood and it sticks in my head when i think about that thought, so it chears me up so i giggle a little bit
oh haha okay
Thats what i ment
:P
yea that's what I understood before okie cool
now
any of the regrets make you feel bad?
as in
the past regrets
when you think about one of them now
Lemme try think of one
Even after loosing my best friend its hard to regret anything i did before which made me loose him
I mean, its hard to explain
okay
so
about that friend
do you miss him? (or her?)
Miss him alot like alot, but im having trouble regretting anything whcih made me loose him to be honest
Great
now
about missing him
do this on him
and tell me how much of that did you understand and performed
in yoru mind
Alrighty
Btw
Thanks for spending times to fix my introusive thoughts adam.
Well appreciated.
adam*
Sorry, Misspell.
Sure
you will repay me by having a bright future and making your mom even happier and more energetic than what she is
I just sent my mum a message saying how well this has been going 😀
You are off for a great start
let me know when you are done with the last link I've sent you
Im Done
Whats next?
i got to be right back soon.
right back?
Fine ill phrase it in your spelling, i got to BRB soon.
xD
lol
so
So, Whats next
I saw the guilt one.
now when you think of that friend
what happens
It feels quite nice indeed.]
Like it cheered me up a bit
remember the good timtes?
Yea
i remember
the warmth and appreciation for having him in your lfe?
Yea.
all you got from this relationship
all that you've learne
learned
and forever carry with you
now
waht did you say about guilt?
He lost his trust in me
oh gotcha
and now it feels good
?
instead of guilt / regrest / loss?
Yea, Its feels nice thinking of the good times ect
okay
now
how do you feel now about your life
and being alive and all that 🙂
I remember when i thought about suicide once, JUST once, but ive noticed, if im scared to die, and im scared of dieng old age, Wouldnt that mean i want to live, I shouldnt be giving into my fears...
Im actualy quite happy i exist.
I'm sure you are
and
I wonder
a weird question
how do you know you are happy you exist?
Because, If im scared of death, that means i value my life.
And i dont want to loose it.
that makes sense
are you still scared of death?
Always will be
I cant stop thinking about if heaven is real ect.
well
So i dont know what death is like.
And that realy scares me
like alot.
when you think about death
can you make yourself feel fear now?
What you mean?
you said that used to scare you
so
can you make yourself feel scared now?
I still have that feer of death, its just something which overules ANYTHING in my mind
okay
and you can feel it right now?
Yea, its just cant think of not existing
I*
okay
now
The thought of being dead.
feel that fear
Is like.
that scared
and do this
and let me know how much of that did you understand and performed
It didnt exactly work that well on me
Sadly 😞
Adam
I got to go have dinner
Ill see you later
Sound good?
This is a nice start anyways 🙂
that one is a but more advanced, you will get it when we circle back to it later
just wanted you to have a taste
LMK when u r back
Im back
On my mums laptop.
My brother got on my PC
We share it.
Hey You there?
If not can we talk tommorow, I feel today you have helped alot with my introusive thoughts
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